The "Opposite" Side

 

"Life is full of "opposites".. i am feeling overwhelmed yet at the same time i am not..
Overwhelmed with thots, desires, fears, ambitions, knowledge yet at the same time i'm a blank piece of paper; of unwritten expectations, dreams, hopes and ignorance.
I wish to go forth at full speed but i choose to hold back as well...
I wanna hold on tight to some friendships, relationships, kinship, however disappointment also leave me wondering wat's it worth?
Feelings of peace, fulfilment, love, satisfaction, happiness against that of anger, regret, jealousy, compulsion,vengeance..
Promises were made, words were exchanged, share memories were remember, but they are all in the past.. do u still seek them or throw them all away?
Some write to remember, to record, to put into existence while others write to forget, to forsake...
This puzzle, this maze, this merry-go-round... pulling "opposites" together as we consider.
I stand here in the gap of the two.. lost and dumbfounded not knowing what to do..."

These past fews weeks have been soaked with happy memories of gatherings, blading sessions, late night makan, a stroll in park, greeting of new found friends, meetings with God...
I found a new inner peace within myself filled with satisfaction. A humour on the theories of life and a new alignment of the "right" perspectives. I feel something churning deep within, a change in the air, a distinct indescribable feeling i can't comprehend. That's the side i'm willing to share.. the rest is something we are have to deal with.. u & me alike.. of the uncertainties & negativity. I've conquered it i suppose.. cos i believe in me.