Simple Thoughts.. Complex Thinking...

"Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind".. My Version...

It's so cold.. We took a step outside to get our Domino's Pizza Dinner.. You can feel the damn cold of the nite.. it's drizzling, the wind was blowing.. you can see the trees swaying.. It feels like that at times.. My soul deprived, my spirit wounded with thots of my past.. it's seems like there are decisions that I have to make.. & I've also realized that there are baggages that have been left hanging and I've yet to deal with.. but then again.. how do u exactly deal with such?!

I bumped into some1 unexpectedly the other day.. the scene replayed again & again in my head. It wasn't how i picture it to be like.. i'm sadden by the way things turned out so far. I wanted a friendship but you said it was a lie.. damn it.. excuses.. you promised but you lied. I'm throughly disappointed to this day.. there! I can finally let it out. I dun need this.. I have finally decided to delete you from my life... because you have no regard for me anyway.. I have no thots of rekindling anything or any sort.. Yet you offered ur polite "friend from a distance".. Well, " No thank you".. I dun need you.. I dun need this.. You change my stereotypical assumption i had that it wasn't possible, then i said i was ready then what do i get?! it's unfair.. I dun know why I'm even bothered abt this but yeah it's been bottling up inside.. I just have to let it out.. so that i can erase all trace of ur existence.. b'cos you're a disappointment. Thanks for the lesson learnt. Thanks.

Like the movie.. i pull myself back in time.. slowly erasing all that needs to be deleted.. it's mainly psychological.. it's no longer painful.. just a process that i think i need to go thru.. I now believe you can do whatever your mind tells you to do.. i'm no longer the feely touchy gal i use to be.. "Mind over Matter" will get the better of me.. Now i stand totally guarded and that's how i'm gonna to be..

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At 1:51 AM, Anonymous said...: dont delete.. yes it may hurt to remember the past.. But it's the knowledge you have from the past that makes you stronger now in the present..

I told her once that i wish i could delete her from my memory.. But then i thought hard.. There were times we shared that ppl wished they had.. and i want to delete them just coz it's impossible between us?
I'm glad i didnt delete her away..
Maybe you should consider too
At 12:15 PM, i believe i can fly said...: *hugs*
At 2:22 PM, Sunflower said...: Hi gal, well.. it doesn't really matter if u delete him from ur memory or not.. What matters is that u carry on with ur life, and live the most out of it, without him.. :) I sometimes still think of G, but then, no doubt that he has hurt me deeply, there were happy moments shared too.. So well.. Maybe selective memory helps?? :p

And oh yah.. in case u din check ur sch email.. we all got an extra ticket for commencement! :)
At 12:35 AM, Anonymous said...: thanks,katie..

Maddie.. Sometimes bad experience makes you wiser and you can look at the person the next time and thank the person for being such an arsehole, coz if it werent for him.. you wouldn't have been wiser..

That day hasnt come for you.. It'll be here soon.. Be patient sis..
At 3:08 AM, Maddy said...: Yep.. guess wat.. my mission have failed.. the deletion was not successful... now let's say i've a change of plans..

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~* Friday, July 01, 2005 ~ "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind".. My Version... It's so cold.. We took a step outside to get our Domino's Pizza Dinner.. You can feel the damn cold of the nite.. it's drizzling, the wind was blowing.. you can see the trees swaying.. It feels like that at times.. My soul deprived, my spirit wounded with thots of my past.. it's seems like there are decisions that I have to make.. & I've also realized that there are baggages that have been left hanging and I've yet to deal with.. but then again.. how do u exactly deal with such?! I bumped into some1 unexpectedly the other day.. the scene replayed again & again in my head. It wasn't how i picture it to be like.. i'm sadden by the way things turned out so far. I wanted a friendship but you said it was a lie.. damn it.. excuses.. you promised but you lied. I'm throughly disappointed to this day.. there! I can finally let it out. I dun need this.. I have finally decided to delete you from my life... because you have no regard for me anyway.. I have no thots of rekindling anything or any sort.. Yet you offered ur polite "friend from a distance".. Well, " No thank you".. I dun need you.. I dun need this.. You change my stereotypical assumption i had that it wasn't possible, then i said i was ready then what do i get?! it's unfair.. I dun know why I'm even bothered abt this but yeah it's been bottling up inside.. I just have to let it out.. so that i can erase all trace of ur existence.. b'cos you're a disappointment. Thanks for the lesson learnt. Thanks. Like the movie.. i pull myself back in time.. slowly erasing all that needs to be deleted.. it's mainly psychological.. it's no longer painful.. just a process that i think i need to go thru.. I now believe you can do whatever your mind tells you to do.. i'm no longer the feely touchy gal i use to be.. "Mind over Matter" will get the better of me.. Now i stand totally guarded and that's how i'm gonna to be.. 5 Comments: At 1:51 AM, Anonymous said... dont delete.. yes it may hurt to remember the past.. But it's the knowledge you have from the past that makes you stronger now in the present.. I told her once that i wish i could delete her from my memory.. But then i thought hard.. There were times we shared that ppl wished they had.. and i want to delete them just coz it's impossible between us? I'm glad i didnt delete her away.. Maybe you should consider too At 12:15 PM, i believe i can fly said... hugs* At 2:22 PM, Sunflower said... Hi gal, well.. it doesn't really matter if u delete him from ur memory or not.. What matters is that u carry on with ur life, and live the most out of it, without him.. :) I sometimes still think of G, but then, no doubt that he has hurt me deeply, there were happy moments shared too.. So well.. Maybe selective memory helps?? :p And oh yah.. in case u din check ur sch email.. we all got an extra ticket for commencement! :) At 12:35 AM, Anonymous said... thanks,katie.. Maddie.. Sometimes bad experience makes you wiser and you can look at the person the next time and thank the person for being such an arsehole, coz if it werent for him.. you wouldn't have been wiser.. That day hasnt come for you.. It'll be here soon.. Be patient sis.. At 3:08 AM, Maddy said... Yep.. guess wat.. my mission have failed.. the deletion was not successful... now let's say i've a change of plans.. Post a Comment << Home Maddy Colored their life at 5:11 AM	* My Profile * About Me Name: Maddy Location: Singapore View my complete profile ~* Quotes ~ Having a place to go - is a home. Having someone to love - is a family. Having both - is a blessing. - Donna Hedges ~ My Friends ~ Sunflower Cranberry Mist Williw Wombat Water Ripples Rednaxela Enchanting Love Lynche Bitchmoanwhine ~ Dailies ~ ~ Previous Posts *~ 1st Few Days at Kingsford... Then i did lost of shopping too! I think i got thi... Gelato!! Oh got so many favours here!! wah... I tr... Shopping! Their clothes here very nice! Had this spicy Tom Yam Noodle at one of the thai c... On the Plane.. I wrote: Bye Singapore & Hellloooo Sydney!! Care to Dance? Banana Chocolate Pizza for dessert.. oooh wee... Yummy Pasta at Pasta Mania!

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