Simple Thoughts.... Complex Thinking..... In Search For An Answer
~* Saturday, July 30, 2005 *~
Heya pple, i'm back! My bro got his computer up and running.. my lappy still can't be used to go online... but my life has been a bore.. i think my age is catching up on me.. i'm feeling old.. and i have no mood to do anything, i dun enjoy going out anymore.. Ever since i came back from Aussie, i've not be able to adapt back to my Singapore life. The weather gets me down, the idea of public transport makes me weak in my knees, the food is greasy, my funds are running an all time LOW... til today i still haven't got the chance to spent one full day at home.. i've been out every single day! I'm tired.. i just wanna stay home to rest, to play with my wolfy, to relax, to do some important reflection, to eat my nourishing home cooked meals, to spend time with my family, to just go online all day to find out stuff for work, my loans, my CPA... u see! I'm boring you alrdy!
Work has yet to commence but i can feel the depression kicking in.. the stress of financial mgt, the need to make something out of myself.. anything.. the need to provide for the family not just fund my own needs.. the need to start saving for my MBA and CPA program, to make investments, for insurance, Hp bills, for my car.. to buy meals to thank those who have stood beside me for so long, cheering me on! Pple like my family, my godparents, my aunties & uncles...
to be focus on wat i really wanna do.. my career plans for the future.. b'cos if you realized it, it all have to start now! I mean now! You can't expect things to happen if you dun plan for them.. but i mean these are all the very basic minumium.. but it's freeky scary!
Yet I still haven't includes things i "want" to get or i thot so.. like $ to go on holiday, for working wear, cosmestics, entertainment, birthdays gifts, nice dinners with friends... it's ain't happening for me... i'm not planning for big ticket items like LV, or super branded stuff.. i mean these are essentials for any gal.. but these little things do add to alot... and it's definitely been stressing me out.. and esp now when i have no income as i'm waiting for work to start in Sept, just came back from my exp Aussie trip.. it only fair that i dun overspent b4 i start work..
Just got the news today that I won't be moving anymore cos of some stupid gal person who has been holding things up for the housing developer and the co. now reject our appeal for an extension of the date as it is already long over due for us to actually move... anyway long story..
Today, been to JB with my parents for makan and some grocery shopping bumped into Adrian(the old one from the 1st batch of smu biz) and his gf at lunch, of all places! I mean i was in JB! haha.. then reach home totally shagged and tired to go out anymore... plus headache.. give me 1 day to rest k... it's even a full day... cos last nite up all nite cos had a stayover at my place.. it was great! It's like our final 'bonding' session b4 we all go off to start our routine working life..
Now just a topic discussion b4 i call it a day and go snoooze... "Some pple u get over but never 4get":
There are some pple in our life that we will never forget no matter how hard we try
They are the ones who really change ur life thru ways they never thot possible...
Cos they bring you ur most highest euphoria or seen ur worst..
Work has yet to commence but i can feel the depression kicking in.. the stress of financial mgt, the need to make something out of myself.. anything.. the need to provide for the family not just fund my own needs.. the need to start saving for my MBA and CPA program, to make investments, for insurance, Hp bills, for my car.. to buy meals to thank those who have stood beside me for so long, cheering me on! Pple like my family, my godparents, my aunties & uncles...
to be focus on wat i really wanna do.. my career plans for the future.. b'cos if you realized it, it all have to start now! I mean now! You can't expect things to happen if you dun plan for them.. but i mean these are all the very basic minumium.. but it's freeky scary!
Yet I still haven't includes things i "want" to get or i thot so.. like $ to go on holiday, for working wear, cosmestics, entertainment, birthdays gifts, nice dinners with friends... it's ain't happening for me... i'm not planning for big ticket items like LV, or super branded stuff.. i mean these are essentials for any gal.. but these little things do add to alot... and it's definitely been stressing me out.. and esp now when i have no income as i'm waiting for work to start in Sept, just came back from my exp Aussie trip.. it only fair that i dun overspent b4 i start work..
Just got the news today that I won't be moving anymore cos of some stupid gal person who has been holding things up for the housing developer and the co. now reject our appeal for an extension of the date as it is already long over due for us to actually move... anyway long story..
Today, been to JB with my parents for makan and some grocery shopping bumped into Adrian(the old one from the 1st batch of smu biz) and his gf at lunch, of all places! I mean i was in JB! haha.. then reach home totally shagged and tired to go out anymore... plus headache.. give me 1 day to rest k... it's even a full day... cos last nite up all nite cos had a stayover at my place.. it was great! It's like our final 'bonding' session b4 we all go off to start our routine working life..
Now just a topic discussion b4 i call it a day and go snoooze... "Some pple u get over but never 4get":
There are some pple in our life that we will never forget no matter how hard we try
They are the ones who really change ur life thru ways they never thot possible...
Cos they bring you ur most highest euphoria or seen ur worst..
I've been thinking abt some1 that i can't forget... dropped him a note and glad to hear that he is doing well..
Some1 i can't call everyday... but crosses my mind at the now & then..
But i'm glad to have that some1 that i can't forget cos at least i knew someone b4..
It doesn't matters if he doesn't know it cos i'm doing this for me.. cos i know i'm happy just to know some things of that some1 that i knew b4..
It's really strange how things turn out but i have no regrets cos things happen for a reason and i know mine quite well...
Cos some small things really dun matter except the "Big picture"...
No regrets, good lessons learnt and memories for the walk down memory lane..
"this is for those who have been a "some1" in my life b4".. Have a great weekend! :D
Some1 i can't call everyday... but crosses my mind at the now & then..
But i'm glad to have that some1 that i can't forget cos at least i knew someone b4..
It doesn't matters if he doesn't know it cos i'm doing this for me.. cos i know i'm happy just to know some things of that some1 that i knew b4..
It's really strange how things turn out but i have no regrets cos things happen for a reason and i know mine quite well...
Cos some small things really dun matter except the "Big picture"...
No regrets, good lessons learnt and memories for the walk down memory lane..
"this is for those who have been a "some1" in my life b4".. Have a great weekend! :D
1 Comments:
Hey, thx for having us over.Had a gd chat!:)...And here's hoping u'll use this break to sort out, reflect and be at peace with whoever and watever b4 work starts.
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