We all have our own private life, or so we think. It seems that it is no longer real anymore when we have to tell our parents where we are when they call, share with our closest friends our lastest hankie pankie(if any), you have to have a good reason for not turning up for service, have an MC if you are not at work.

Privacy means freedom from unauthorized intrusion according to webster dictionary.. yet sometimes we dun have that luxury. When we say we like to keep things private.. people assume that we have something to hide.. but at times it may just mean that we like to keep somethings personal. Personal moments may lose its beauty once it is over publicize. Or because it is over & not worth mentioning. Maybe it's just cos we don't have to tell you everything.

It means a loss of personal space that we so futilely guard, it's there but it's not. Cos we learn to realise that the life we are leading are no longer ours... it's forced to be shared, or when one person passes on our story to another. It's inevitable i must say, cos a private person is also a lonely person. I'm not pinpointing or judging anyone.. I just think we will all eventually experience this..

I remain puzzled but accepting of the situation... with so many unresolved contradicting reasons to my question. Or perhaps it's not a question at all... just another myth of our learnt "right of privacy" which we have to soon unlearn. Hence, our privacy is "exposed" or "intruded".

The wall we put up infront of us, is invisible, so transparent that it's not there at all. It's a security that we all yearn, a self-defence mechanism to protect ourselves from getting hurt. As we all master the art of mindreading.. as keith put it.. being street wise to outwit another is to outthink them.. read their actions b4 they even carry it out. The wall is broken down as it is being built up, we gain this new insight as we slowly wake up from this illusion.

This freedom is somewhat less mention, of just bring yourself, not comforming to other's expectation, not suppressing your emotions/thots, of creating a world of euphoria.. that you can go relieve some stress, emotions that not everybody wants/needs to know about.. nothing against God but with God.. cos God gonna to find out anyway... a time for God & myself.. dun say i'm selfish.. don't you judge me.. cos you're not God to begin with... and you're not even involve or part of it...

At times, i just need to disappear into my own personal space.. cos i think a time-out.. to be with ourselves is needed, to sort out our thoughts, to re-charge to our true selves, can bring out the best in us. This is not an excuse... this is the reality... of what i hope to have at least in my own secret invisible wall of privacy...