When saying I've had a Bad Day isn't even near...

 

Yep.. you got that right... i'm fucking pissed! Just got insulted by an inefficient, lousy, low EQ, irresponsible TIC today! He doesn't does any shit.. first don't put step in the file.. then ask you to plug in leadsheet.. then later you put in steps and the next day he puts in steps to cause duplicates which you have to delete?!?!

Makes you print stuff that you don't even end up using.. which comes up to hundreds of pages?! Then pass you files that he miss out two important ones when he actually borrowed from the filing room! then ask for a file which he passed to ya to bring to client's place.. Not accompanying us down on the first day.. asking us to wait for his email for the client address which he didn't send, then asking why we are still in Office?!?!

Comes down to client place to show face the next day and doesn't provide much help but just shakes his head.. and ask you to do sales sections the you've never done b4 in your life and later when asking him for coaching which he turns a deaf ear.. then takes MIA the next day to leave you to clear his shit.. then when all stuck and tried ways to resolve it to no avail.. he askes you what you've done the whole day.. when he himself don't even know how to resolve the problem.. when he previously shares with you that he took 4 days to try to balance a previous year Balance Sheet and P and L... then expect ME!! Someone who has much lesser experience to do it without any guidance at all!!

Subsequently, on calling him to request for help... he slaps you in the face with "if you think you can go home and look at yourself and sleep at night, then it's fine with me".. BLOODY HELL!!! I was stunned.. too shock for words.. only to say "Of Cos"... He goes around critising the rest of the team by asking that "what did you do all day?" then replying with a "You only did these?"... No comforting.. "any issues?/How is progress?/call me if you gals get stuck?"...

Leaving each of us to do 2 entities each... he only needing to do deferred tax which is not even ready.. or to do consolidation which the client has already done according to him! What the FUCK is he doing?! he other crappy jobs?!??!

No wonder he looks a decade older than me.. that's why he has lost most of his hair... the IDIOT deserves it!

Wonder why i even work thru the night trying to tile figures.. to come in during my birthday when i could've called in sick... to go off late for dinner.. having my family wait for me... To think my brains dry trying my best to solve the problem then someone my level shouldn't even be doing?! I appreciate the exposure.. but when you're at wits end.. you freaking cry out for help! When it's not even your fault that the numbers don't tile... when you don't know why it's that way.. when work has already been done last year... when the STUPID TIC don't/can't help...just abuses his authority and leave the planning badly done.. when can't even get back to ya within the day to tell you the finalised "materiality figure" that you yourself calculated on your every own!?!?

Then the other gal.. don't know how to put it.. quite irritating.. can't leave me to do my work in peace... asking qns like "is creditors, accounts payable?!"... don't wanna say anymore... you get the picture when she was working almost the same period of time as i started. I can't even work in peace.... then i can't ignore either..

Came home later that night... for a dinner to find out that my maid brought men home to my house... dunno for what! We're sending her home.. SOON... then my parents quarrelling over it... whether how to deal with the maid.. the things in the house... they've been on really bad terms recently.. and i feel stuck in the middle... hope they stay bright and cheery when it's over...

Called someone whom i thot i could rely on.. but another slam on the door... when all i've been doing is making sacrifices to my life... holding off bathing, being patience... affect my life and career plans... my life plans... and when i needed a listening ear most.. when i was told that "i'll always be there"... was shove to one corner just because the person needed to go BATHE..... when already demonstrating my desperation... to be asked to WAIT........... Some things can't wait... some times you need someone to lean on.. and if you can't be there when needed.. the opportunity passes... it won't come back... you'll just look for someone esle.. then you realised that the person isn't what you thot out to be...... when things all start crumbling... the one that you put ur trust in turns the back on ya... It's not abt the 5 mins or an hour or days or any length of time.. it's when you needed it most!.. that's what counts.. for me at least...

Yesterday was my birthday.. I had a good dinner with my family and my cousins and Uncle and Yi Yi... I was stoning thru out... but my mama was so kind.. she planned the whole thing! I know I always have my family and some of my dearest friends even planned a birthday dinner for me last Monday.. where they are a surprised birthday treat and cake! From Tamz and Angie and many others who have been asking me out even though I really can't make it due to the tight schedule and long time bestest pals whom I'm going to meet up with this weekend.. Yeah!!

I wanna thank all those who even remembered and sent me lovely birthday greetings.. it's not those fancy presents or dinner treats or anything costly.. I feel touched by those who even made a mental note of my birthday.. it's the simple things that warm my heart...

For those who have been listening to my rubbish and complains.. those who are actually THERE for me it's really deeply appreciated.. I feel that I'm up and strong again to face this battle.. I'm not going to succumb to it! It all lies with how you deal with these problems which will come and go... and when necessary "sacrifices" have to be made I know I've always given my best in whatever I do.. I have no regrets... do you?