Ain't such a rosy place.......

 

I thot things have been going well.. however it just came crashing down when I realised some things that I've always overlooked til now... it can be summarised as below:

One of the most tragic things I know about human nature is that all of us tend to put off living. We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon, instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today. - Dale Carnegie, 1888 - 1955

With realisation comes sadness............ cutting deep...... of wat's loss... of the coulda, woulda, shoulda........ of the things that would've been.................

I don't wish to seat back and reflect.. I wanna make a change yet certain things are not within my control... like thing don't turn out the way you put them together in ur head, be it friends, family or lover... Openness and vulnerability.. of putting down my pride and guard.. of truth and honesty... of taking a risk and putting my heart out there... Totally battled to the ground.. torned and tattered.. Yet no offensive taken just my own doing and mine... of reaping what i've sown... of digging my nose in areas not mine...

I feel like a fool... when i realised that this world ain't such a rosy place... anymore... then how can i just stop to smell the roses... when i no longer see it thru rose tinted glasses...