I'm not as Bright anymore.....

 

It's been a rough day..... very demoralising actually....
Cos it's been a while since i really worked.. cos of the off peak
And also it's seems that i've left very much of my accounting behind...
Maybe cos i'm PMSing.. or mabe b'cos i'm just tired.. or could it be
that my work engine is still heating up...

Wat I can say is that I've tried my best...
I've look thru everything i could.. I've thot til my brains are fried..
I've tried to tile figues which doesn't work out cos it's just not done that way..
But I TRIED.........

Yet I sense that my efforts would go unnoticed.... my seeming trials
to understand simple but forgotten concepts would just overwrite
watever good i put into my work....... the strange tension i feel in the room...
when I've done and redone what someone esle did wrongly... but i feel
that i can't tell anyone... cos it'll just seem that I'm pushing blame...
that I'm just trying to upload on someone esle......

I think my TIC probably feels that way already......
I'm disappointed with myself..... with work....
With how i manage the situation.... but how?!
I felt that I put in my Best 100% already...
Doesn't that count?

My late nights staying up like to day to somehow make things work...
To complete my documentation... seems so endless.....
I took breaks after work to go out.. get some free air.. to have dinner...
Which i felt did me good.. cos now.. i feel more like myself...
I feel that I'm a better person....... and the day doesn't seem to bad when
You have something to look forward to........

I'm down with slight sickness but my continual insomnia from work
Won't help much.......
With manager down tomorrow.. and DnD in the evening......
I wonder how I can get from home to the venue.... or how
can i get my things done in time....

But i tell myself that at the end of the day....
WORK will always be WORK........
I pray that i'll somehow survive tomorrow with only 3 hrs left to zzz...
Yet I need to rant for a bit b4 i go to bed......

I wish for the weekend to come... and to have no coaching notes tomorrow..
Pray for me will ya..... thanks! :D