It's been a really long while since i've done some self reflection... I realized that my fuse is getting shorter and shorter.. I don't feel like i'm performing much either on my job.. my love life ain't great.... pple i care abt seem to be busy, drifting away, some just don't even know i care...

On the brighter side, I've been holiday.. alot of new items.. i speak more of my mind.. i'm learning alot of new things.. spending more time with my family... spending less unneccessary money...

There seems to be so much to be done.. that i don't even know where to start... my to do list is just expanding.. i'm not talking abt work mind you... just abt the things i wanna do in my life and how i would like to live... wat is the purpose of my life?

As a Christain i probably already know the answer.. but walking the talk is much more difficult and complex... with many sacrifices.. strength... grace... many beyond me now.. I can only rely on God... however that in itself is a big struggle... who am I really? i feel like i'm at one place at so many times, that i can never concentrate or focus.. I pray for my soul... like how i pray for yours.. so that maybe we can shed our own skin... cos mostly, it's not who we really are, inside.. a front that we have to put up for watever reasons...

Coming Out From Within
I glare into the eyes that reaches deep into the soul, with a sense of emptiness as though
They carry a truth that can't be told, as others shun spiritual depthness ever so.
The world is filled with shallow praise, of fun and laughter with pretense.

I hope not that the end be near, if so, we'll all perish with fear.
I challenge self to be crystal clear, so that my compassion can pierce me to tears.
I desire to be the one full of love, so that i can conquer the world.