Unreachable...

 

Work is still at the top of my To do List... It's never ending and the list never fails to grow longer and longer...

Another week has passed and I'm still clearing my backlog cos of some exceptions that I've noted... the client is unhappy & my words got twisted... As I've said to them, "things are so far so good, as things seem to be in place during that point in time".. but cicumstances change when I've exceptions that needed to be iron out.. and i highlighted it to some superior authority. Well... all that happens is that it just falls back into my lap... and somehow it seems to be my problem to clear...

But with my lack of experience, expertise and power to make the decisions.... i'm helpless and left to deal with client on my own... now the client is upset... the person/pple above me is unpleased.. i've over worked and burnt out.. my quality of work has dropped to < zero.........

Yet i've still another 2 piles of ShXt.. to follow up.. to clear..... to work on........

I'm very tempted.......... to open that template... to change the name........

To go and buy My nicely pressed White enevelop.................. b'cos for once... for a day...... I wish to be UNREACHABLE....... to evaporate from the face of this earth......

Cos at this point.. I've no solution.. but to just continuing doing.. to just clear wat the left to do.... which isn't exactly wat i wanna do now..... BUT...

I will finish wat i'm assigned to.. mistakes made... I guess I'll just have to learn... but the unfairness of it all, for asking 1 person to do a 2 person one week job.. for expecting me to finish in one day is really kinda ridiculous.. i took it.. i tried my best... I failed.... next time... i'll have to hold my ground.......to pluck up my courage and say.... "NO"... cos I can't do it.. no matter how much i try.......

I'm tired..... i've used up every single shred of energy... i need my life back... these two weeks nearly took my joy for living... and yet i'm still powerless to do anything abt it...

However, i'm not going to let this take me down.. I've going to just let this blow over... to go to work on Monday morning.. with a BIG HUGE SMILE on my Face... b'cos....... I know I did wat I can...