Jaded......

 

It's finally here.......... My long long awaited Break!!!
Today as I left my office... I felt a smile on my face...
A jump in my steps...... wind in my hair.......
But this weeks ahead has alot of plans for me....

First... I've gotta face those skeletons in my closet...
I tremble with fear.... things that i've took so much
strength to get over, move on, get rid, buried now
resurfaced...... I have no idea wat to expect.. and
I dun feel ready at all..... but I know it'll all somehow
turn out well i suppose so I put myself thru it..
Kicking, struggling, dragging my two feet........

I wonder if I can really succeed in making it effective..
If i can get thru it as it is really suppose to be....

Perhaps I do really need this...
All that has happened these past months...
Have left my with a sour taste in my mouth...
I'm jaded with it ALL........ I apolygise for my
Practicality, for giving my "know it all" take on life..
For protraying life so blatantly that it screams hell..

I've overcome it, no doubt.....
Along with experiences that sink deep into my soul..

I need to unlearn wat's learnt......
To press a reset button so that once again I can
believe, live, gain clarity, simplicity, purity of
Love, Friendships, Kinship.... in its truest form......

Cos time has washed away the wounds, scars, memories...
Leaving me hardening my thots, feelings, passion...

I still wanna embrace life, to live it as it's meant to be..
I wanna come clean..... to refresh and rejuvenate....
& I pray that this break really helps me.........