Seize the Moment

 

It's been such a brilliant great week for me.. from church camp.. it was a mountain top experience.. one I immerse so deeply.. I cried.. I closed my eyes hoping that that very moment won't go away..

My renewed love for the Lord.. I've caught the spirit.. one not my own.. My soul is overflowing.. I just want to remember.. to never let go of "now"... cos finally I feel the peace.. I forgot the bitterness... My goggles clean and focus... I believe in love, hope and peace.....

With some things not getting in my way, some things I realised that I could do nothing but give up.. it was too self-destructive no matter how i tried to make it good...... I learn to love myself sometimes... this time more than others... perhaps things are better this way...

I made many new friends.. caught up with many old ones.. I talked alot abt the spiritual aspects of our human life... not to judge, not to conquer, not to make new arguments... just to spread the love ard.. to clear steorotypes of cold mindsets of imperfect reality of christainity... I believe I made a mark.. I wanna stand up and shout.. to do wat I can... little or big... I'm one person.. but I know God work is mysterious ways... not so I can gain merits.. not for my personal benefit but merely cos I love and care... for you.. for others... in wat I think is best..... just try to understand that... cos I want to share wat I have, it's not mine.. it's meant to be out there......

I don't have doubts.. I don't want to want deception to come in.. cos I came out of taking the wrong side.. It's a tough walk.. it's a relieve.. it's a breakthru.. I pray to God.. that this moment.. this realization be buried deep in my heart and soul.. cos I dun wanna run away from You no more...