Simple Thoughts.... Complex Thinking..... In Search For An Answer
~* Wednesday, May 04, 2005 *~
Pronoia is the suspicion that the universe is a conspiracy on your behalf, the opposite of the popular sense of paranoia. Defined it as “the delusion that others think well of one”, the unreasoning belief that your superiors think you are indispensable, that your colleagues adore you, and that you are doing brilliantly in your work. It was later taken up by the short-lived group called the ZIPPies (the Zen Inspired Pronoia Pagans). The word has a small continuing niche, though its adjective pronoid is less common.
Today, when i think about my enemies.. i have none to name.. i like the idea that people do want the best for you.. most of the time. When i look and think about the pple around me.. they only have good words of affection and encouragement when they speck to me.. I've been on the line with several friends and family, talking to my family at home as well. Feeling absolutely well-loved and at home with each one of them.
First was a smooth sailing presentation at AT, a nice well done from Mr. D.. I mean he doesn't usually talk to me! But then to get a compliment.. it puts me on top of the world! A nice ride hm with min li.. great gal.. then back hm was catching up with my mama.. though she was complaining.. it's still nice to sit down together and talk. Talks with my "usuals" on msn.. a call from my cruz, ling for our usual chit-chat and gal talk. Next, my bestest friend sunflower.. Jia yi returned my call on queries on AMA & our other unhappiness about the sch system & "news".. then some more deep talk with Aaron, my spiritual guru.. only can click with him at that level..
What's wrong looking at the world thru rose-tinted glasses? Its just makes things more pleasant.. it just puts on more sunshine.. To be Happy-go-lucky.. Um.. to think that there is some ounce of good in even ur worst enemy. I like this world.. This eutopia that i wanna create for myself. Only then.. I can go about like Miss Mary Poppins.. flying around with my umbrella.. who cares what u think? I can live, eat and breathe on my air of positivity...
I can just live with me, myself and I.. In my own blisssful life of ignorance.. or to just close my eyes and hope this turns into reality.. well, they say if you wanna change the world you gotta start with yourself.. this is definitely a start for sure. Join me in my zen world.. with my wierd maddy lingo of "wolfy.. pronunced as woppie", "thoughtful... sounding like totful", "laptop is called lappie".... and where i am known as "baby bear", "ah siao", "meh meh" or "xiao nu"....
It just seems to me that i have the world all going for me... yeah! Maybe being a bit of a narcissist as well... constant need for attention.. haha... i happen to like that idea very much! Being in such a happy mood.. i'll like to spread more cheer around despite my tight deadlines, my test in a day.. my spirits are high as i know that there is a peace in my heart, a joy in my soul, a gal in there is ready to conquer the world! Wow! Bring it on! ;)
Today, when i think about my enemies.. i have none to name.. i like the idea that people do want the best for you.. most of the time. When i look and think about the pple around me.. they only have good words of affection and encouragement when they speck to me.. I've been on the line with several friends and family, talking to my family at home as well. Feeling absolutely well-loved and at home with each one of them.
First was a smooth sailing presentation at AT, a nice well done from Mr. D.. I mean he doesn't usually talk to me! But then to get a compliment.. it puts me on top of the world! A nice ride hm with min li.. great gal.. then back hm was catching up with my mama.. though she was complaining.. it's still nice to sit down together and talk. Talks with my "usuals" on msn.. a call from my cruz, ling for our usual chit-chat and gal talk. Next, my bestest friend sunflower.. Jia yi returned my call on queries on AMA & our other unhappiness about the sch system & "news".. then some more deep talk with Aaron, my spiritual guru.. only can click with him at that level..
What's wrong looking at the world thru rose-tinted glasses? Its just makes things more pleasant.. it just puts on more sunshine.. To be Happy-go-lucky.. Um.. to think that there is some ounce of good in even ur worst enemy. I like this world.. This eutopia that i wanna create for myself. Only then.. I can go about like Miss Mary Poppins.. flying around with my umbrella.. who cares what u think? I can live, eat and breathe on my air of positivity...
I can just live with me, myself and I.. In my own blisssful life of ignorance.. or to just close my eyes and hope this turns into reality.. well, they say if you wanna change the world you gotta start with yourself.. this is definitely a start for sure. Join me in my zen world.. with my wierd maddy lingo of "wolfy.. pronunced as woppie", "thoughtful... sounding like totful", "laptop is called lappie".... and where i am known as "baby bear", "ah siao", "meh meh" or "xiao nu"....
It just seems to me that i have the world all going for me... yeah! Maybe being a bit of a narcissist as well... constant need for attention.. haha... i happen to like that idea very much! Being in such a happy mood.. i'll like to spread more cheer around despite my tight deadlines, my test in a day.. my spirits are high as i know that there is a peace in my heart, a joy in my soul, a gal in there is ready to conquer the world! Wow! Bring it on! ;)
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