Old one don't go... New one don't come..

 

As you can see.. my old header is gone... i came online then it said my pic no longer hosted... i really like the previous butterfly pic.. but some problem with the link.. then can't post or find it anymore.. I was so sad...

But decided that i can make my own header! So Ta Duh!! Do u think it's nice? i drew it myself.. :D

*Thoughts of a better place*

 

Ben and Jerry Goodness!

 

Ben And Jerry's!! I tried 6 flavours today... Chunky Monkey, New York Super Fudge, Dublin Chocolates, Chocolate Fudge Brownie... Fantastic Strawberry Cheesecake! and Legendary Fish Food!!..... Aww...... Sugar Rush!!!!!!!!

 

Look at the Chocolate Fish in the Fish food ice-cream!! Nasty!.. muhahahah

 

See Our China Man Lee on his Vespa... he thinks he is so cool can!

"Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends."

 

Bad Things Happen To Good People

 

Many a times i've asked myself "why me? Why this?"... I question God on why He allowss bad things to happen to good people? Wat happened to Good triumphing over bad.. or reaping wat we have sow.. abt the good karma for those who are by nature good...

But then i realised and learnt and was eventually taught that many a times it's better to...

1) Accept that there maybe NO Explanation

It's hard to understand why you work hard but not rewarded accordingly.. why you get scolded for no reason... that you end up doing the worst job that nobody wants.. that you watch your health but end up dieased... that you just lose things that are yours to keep..... you wonder....

2) More Than This Life

As I believe that life is not all we have here on earth... there is another world waiting for us... for eternity...

Even if it is... it's ain't worth living it chasing after material wants...... to end up leaving without being it bring it along... We enter the world with nothing.. we also leave it with nothing.....

As my faith is salvation.. I believe in such a things as heaven... i believe in the God's promise for me... watever it may be... my life here is just a passage or journey... it's not my destination..

Then wat do i want to achieve here then? Wat's my purpose in life? Why am i being placed here? I'm in search for an answer of wat i'm called to do..... i've got dreams.. of something intangible.. of leaving more than a fortune.. a house... a company... these shouldn't even be part of it... I don't wanna be a tai tai no more... I just wanna add more peace, love and joy... to share of my joy.. my love... my completeness in God.. yet this fundamental truth is the hardest...

3) Refinement

For now.. i look at the things i'm doing.. i've found a new found peace.. of knowing that i'm working not because of the money.. not because the job offers great prospects.. not to earn that bonus... not to gain that recognition...

It's through all these i learn wat i'm put here to do.. there is a reason why things happens.. secret reasons that are not mine to know... i look at the job as a refinement of who i'm going to be.. my character, my habits, my thots and deeds.........

It's during those tough times that we grown the most.. "Hard times are the makers or breakers".. it's wat we choose to do.. we may make mistakes, we all do... it's the picking up and learning and changing for the better that's the most important...

4) Simple Truth

The last thing we should never forget.. there is God... if you believe that there is a God out there.. you will know that He is the only one who has the answers... does a inventor not know wat he made his invention for?

The Simple Truth is to believe...... I've been running in this rat race.. i forgot who I am.. wat i believe in... I believe that life's not all about work or money... that I'm here for a greater purpose... that there is no such thing as a dead end....

To believe in wat you really think... not to succumb to situations or accept things the way they are... to make a point to make a chance... To not just stand back and follow the crowd... to think about earning that little bit of money so as to support the family... If the sparrows in the air can do much as not worry about food..... We as superior beings are entitled to much more...

Believe in wat you're called to do... whether it is to love, to give, to receive, to spread joy, to help others... let's not feed the social fabric with hurt, pain and suffering... if only you can choose to BELIEVE.... that things can be change.. you can make a difference.... Big or small..... it's worth it.......

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe. - Anatole France

I had a Great Birthday!! Couldn't have been so special without you!!

 

Hi all.. too tired to blog.. only managed to post pictures... hey gals.. i'll try to get the polariod scan asap.. now make do with this one i post here taken on my digi cam first k... Nitezy!!

 

My Hot Cyber Date on Friday night... web caming with me.. online... who says we always gotta meet in person? Webcam is the way to go when you've got time constraints... especially if you're in audit.. So happy to find another person to webcam with! we talk til way past midnight lor...

 

Dinner with my family... at bab noodle... I love their Kim Chi Soup!! And Yes.. my mom and auntie are twins if you didn't know already... :D

 

My cousins.. at ,y birthday dinner.. Wilson.. says he is the happiest now.. cos got 2 mei nu, one on each arm.. wat can i say.. I agree!! *thumbs up*!

 

Dinner with my Sec Sch gals.. we know each other for more than 10 years liaoz.. and they always remembers my birthday!!... and Yuzhen even came with her injured toe.. these are wat friends are for!...

 

Fomr the free polariod picture taken at the resturant.. plus free birthday cake!! Not bad! I like the place.. got good ambience.. and the food's pretty reasonable and delicious too! Great service and good looking manager.. so gals.. head on down.. to Ma Maision at Bugis Level 2...

 

Checked Red bear bear.. lip gloss and purple eye shadow for me to look pretty next time i go out! From my ever dearest Cousin... Ling!!! We're like sisters.. she is like my fashion + beauty + relationship consultant all roll in one.. hee hee..

 

Sins Chocolates and Sweets......Wooo... They're so sweet.. i can't bear to open and eat it... Thanks Babes!!

 

This is the Lovely Fuctional Necklacecum choker cum belt.. which can be used in at least 5 diff styles!! So Amazing!! I love the gift!!! Smuacks!!

Life.....

 

Have you ever wonder if you really need that much of money, power and fame??
This is something meaningful for you all... . .

A long time ago, there was an Emperor who told his horseman that if he could ride on his horse and cover as much land area as he likes, then the Emperor would give him the area of land he has covered.

Sure enough, the horseman quickly jumped onto his horse and rode as fast as possible to cover as much land area as he could. He kept on riding and riding, whipping the horse to go as fast as possible. When he was hungry or tired, he did not stop because he wanted to cover as much area as possible.

Came to a point when he had covered a substantial area and he was exhausted and was dying.

Then he asked himself, "Why did I push myself so hard to cover so much land area? Now I am dying and I only need a very small area to bury myself."

The above story is similar with the journey of our Life. We push very hard everyday to make more money, to gain power and recognition. We neglect our health , time with our family and to appreciate the surrounding beauty and the hobbies we love.

One day when we look back , we will realize that we don't really need that much, but then we cannot turn back time for what we have missed.

Life is not about making money, acquiring power or recognition . Life is definitely not about work! Work is only necessary to keep us living so as to enjoy the beauty and pleasures of life. Life is a balance of Work and Play, Family and Personal time. You have to decide how you want to balance your Life. Define your priorities, realize what you are able to compromise but always let some of your decisions be based on your instincts. Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of Life, the whole aim of human existence.

So, take it easy, do what you want to do and appreciate nature. Life is fragile, Life is short. Do not take Life for granted. Live a balanced lifestyle and enjoy Life!

Watch your thoughts ; they become words.

Watch your words ; they become actions.

Watch your actions ; they become habits.

Watch your habits; they become character .

Watch your character; it becomes your DESTINY....

 

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort. - Herm Albright

 

I have always grown from my problems and challenges, from the things that don't work out, that's when I've really learned. - Carol Burnett

When saying I've had a Bad Day isn't even near...

 

Yep.. you got that right... i'm fucking pissed! Just got insulted by an inefficient, lousy, low EQ, irresponsible TIC today! He doesn't does any shit.. first don't put step in the file.. then ask you to plug in leadsheet.. then later you put in steps and the next day he puts in steps to cause duplicates which you have to delete?!?!

Makes you print stuff that you don't even end up using.. which comes up to hundreds of pages?! Then pass you files that he miss out two important ones when he actually borrowed from the filing room! then ask for a file which he passed to ya to bring to client's place.. Not accompanying us down on the first day.. asking us to wait for his email for the client address which he didn't send, then asking why we are still in Office?!?!

Comes down to client place to show face the next day and doesn't provide much help but just shakes his head.. and ask you to do sales sections the you've never done b4 in your life and later when asking him for coaching which he turns a deaf ear.. then takes MIA the next day to leave you to clear his shit.. then when all stuck and tried ways to resolve it to no avail.. he askes you what you've done the whole day.. when he himself don't even know how to resolve the problem.. when he previously shares with you that he took 4 days to try to balance a previous year Balance Sheet and P and L... then expect ME!! Someone who has much lesser experience to do it without any guidance at all!!

Subsequently, on calling him to request for help... he slaps you in the face with "if you think you can go home and look at yourself and sleep at night, then it's fine with me".. BLOODY HELL!!! I was stunned.. too shock for words.. only to say "Of Cos"... He goes around critising the rest of the team by asking that "what did you do all day?" then replying with a "You only did these?"... No comforting.. "any issues?/How is progress?/call me if you gals get stuck?"...

Leaving each of us to do 2 entities each... he only needing to do deferred tax which is not even ready.. or to do consolidation which the client has already done according to him! What the FUCK is he doing?! he other crappy jobs?!??!

No wonder he looks a decade older than me.. that's why he has lost most of his hair... the IDIOT deserves it!

Wonder why i even work thru the night trying to tile figures.. to come in during my birthday when i could've called in sick... to go off late for dinner.. having my family wait for me... To think my brains dry trying my best to solve the problem then someone my level shouldn't even be doing?! I appreciate the exposure.. but when you're at wits end.. you freaking cry out for help! When it's not even your fault that the numbers don't tile... when you don't know why it's that way.. when work has already been done last year... when the STUPID TIC don't/can't help...just abuses his authority and leave the planning badly done.. when can't even get back to ya within the day to tell you the finalised "materiality figure" that you yourself calculated on your every own!?!?

Then the other gal.. don't know how to put it.. quite irritating.. can't leave me to do my work in peace... asking qns like "is creditors, accounts payable?!"... don't wanna say anymore... you get the picture when she was working almost the same period of time as i started. I can't even work in peace.... then i can't ignore either..

Came home later that night... for a dinner to find out that my maid brought men home to my house... dunno for what! We're sending her home.. SOON... then my parents quarrelling over it... whether how to deal with the maid.. the things in the house... they've been on really bad terms recently.. and i feel stuck in the middle... hope they stay bright and cheery when it's over...

Called someone whom i thot i could rely on.. but another slam on the door... when all i've been doing is making sacrifices to my life... holding off bathing, being patience... affect my life and career plans... my life plans... and when i needed a listening ear most.. when i was told that "i'll always be there"... was shove to one corner just because the person needed to go BATHE..... when already demonstrating my desperation... to be asked to WAIT........... Some things can't wait... some times you need someone to lean on.. and if you can't be there when needed.. the opportunity passes... it won't come back... you'll just look for someone esle.. then you realised that the person isn't what you thot out to be...... when things all start crumbling... the one that you put ur trust in turns the back on ya... It's not abt the 5 mins or an hour or days or any length of time.. it's when you needed it most!.. that's what counts.. for me at least...

Yesterday was my birthday.. I had a good dinner with my family and my cousins and Uncle and Yi Yi... I was stoning thru out... but my mama was so kind.. she planned the whole thing! I know I always have my family and some of my dearest friends even planned a birthday dinner for me last Monday.. where they are a surprised birthday treat and cake! From Tamz and Angie and many others who have been asking me out even though I really can't make it due to the tight schedule and long time bestest pals whom I'm going to meet up with this weekend.. Yeah!!

I wanna thank all those who even remembered and sent me lovely birthday greetings.. it's not those fancy presents or dinner treats or anything costly.. I feel touched by those who even made a mental note of my birthday.. it's the simple things that warm my heart...

For those who have been listening to my rubbish and complains.. those who are actually THERE for me it's really deeply appreciated.. I feel that I'm up and strong again to face this battle.. I'm not going to succumb to it! It all lies with how you deal with these problems which will come and go... and when necessary "sacrifices" have to be made I know I've always given my best in whatever I do.. I have no regrets... do you?

 

It's Over When Nothings Matters No More..

Retail Therapy

 

I was at the expo furniture fair today.. and bought some amazingly great stuff... that's what i call retail therapy........

 

Ever wonder what it's like to live in the Big Apple?! You can do it right here! :D

 

Oriental Photo Album Scrap Book..

 

Funky Accessories Hanging Mannequin..

 

Sea Shelly Bags..

Busy Week

 

This week.. been super duper busy.. worked til around 11pm everyday.. and sometimes i bring work home to do.. i feel like cinderella.. working and then going home at midnight.. i miss my bed... so i'm off to sleeeep........

Me and my client... the stooopid client who screamed at me.. suck my blood!.. lucky this compensates for it.. i eat more to make up for all the lost of blood!

 

My team mates.. all tired out from the long nights working.. trying hard to eat faster so we won't have to work tomorrow.. but then in the end.. we ate til 9:30pm when the resturant closes...

 

Glorious.. feast.... Japanese style..

 

Check out the succulent teriyaki chicken.. and Norman taking his time to make his pick..

Perseverance

 

Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be attained. - Marie Curie

Yet,

Perseverance alone does not assure success. No amount of stalking will lead to game in a field that has none. - I Ching


I feelin kinda stressed lately.. some stuff about work still hanging at the back of my mind.. i don't take my mistakes quite as well as others... i hog on it.. think about it... and some how can't seem to move on......

Is it cos of my strive of excellence? Excellence is like having a job well done.. i guess most part of my motivation is based on that.. I need to get it done well.. if not it just sucks.. it's either all or nothing at all... Yet you can't cry over spill milk... or undo wat you've already done...

So all i can do now is just persevere... I pray for the strength of God to be with me.. and you... Amen...