Simple Thoughts.... Complex Thinking..... In Search For An Answer
~* Sunday, May 21, 2006 *~
So much has happened over the week or weeks.. it really changed my life radically.... I just dunno where to start and yet dun think i'll be sharing abt it here for that matter...
Mixed feelings are evolve when emotions are stirred... it's hard to see clearly... the constant thinking and lack of sleep has also played on my health.. i'm still down with sore thoart and cough since sunday...
Life's a bitch but we all deal with it in our own ways... it's hard when u know that some times things are not in ur control or if someone seems to want to take control of urs... it ain't happening...
I really needed time to myself... to rethink and do further reflection... it just seems so surreal.. and all...
i'm really sad things had a bad turn... and i'm sorry if i ever caused any hurt... but at the same time i realise you can't be the good person and bad person at the same time.. you just need to decide and make a choice...
I hope things turn out for the better of all... and only time will tell.. for now... i'm a confused mess... and just trying to think abt wat's best...
it's a long walk and maybe perhaps a restart at one of the refreshment stations at this life's marathon... but i'll be pressing on... would be lying low for a while my friends... hope you understand...
Mixed feelings are evolve when emotions are stirred... it's hard to see clearly... the constant thinking and lack of sleep has also played on my health.. i'm still down with sore thoart and cough since sunday...
Life's a bitch but we all deal with it in our own ways... it's hard when u know that some times things are not in ur control or if someone seems to want to take control of urs... it ain't happening...
I really needed time to myself... to rethink and do further reflection... it just seems so surreal.. and all...
i'm really sad things had a bad turn... and i'm sorry if i ever caused any hurt... but at the same time i realise you can't be the good person and bad person at the same time.. you just need to decide and make a choice...
I hope things turn out for the better of all... and only time will tell.. for now... i'm a confused mess... and just trying to think abt wat's best...
it's a long walk and maybe perhaps a restart at one of the refreshment stations at this life's marathon... but i'll be pressing on... would be lying low for a while my friends... hope you understand...
~* Friday, May 19, 2006 *~
The group shot... too bad it's too small.. it's really quite a good pic of us... at DXO.. for DJ Freshade's set..
The Guyz...
The Girls...
~* Sunday, May 14, 2006 *~
Sorry for the lack of updates over the long weekend... i've been out living it up in vibrant S'pore! After my CPA exam i just hope i pass...... and then with Vesak day around the corner.. it's a great chance to meet up with my pals... so..
Thursday, most of the gang was down supporting Boon.. DJ Freshade spinning at DXO.. his set is great! u should all come if ya have the chance.. then still not enough.. we went to MoMo's.. i tell ya i nearly died from walking ard.. i was up since 7am that morning.. but damn it.. it's the long weekend!
Friday was down at Velvet for the "Newman" party.. it's free flow but i think i had enough on thurs night already... But i had a good time nevertheless.. meet John, Megan and even Denise! They're just really funky cool pple... never missing their weekend clubbing for years now... always there.. Cheers folks!
The saturday slowed down with just dinner and chilling out.. and sunday was just spending time recuperating from the lack of sleep and yes spending time with Dearest Mama on mother's day! I'm bring her for facial next weekend! Hope she likes her gift! :D
It's monday blues now as i prepare to get back to work on monday.. but i feel i'm finally settling in and liking my job! so "Peace on Earth"...
Thursday, most of the gang was down supporting Boon.. DJ Freshade spinning at DXO.. his set is great! u should all come if ya have the chance.. then still not enough.. we went to MoMo's.. i tell ya i nearly died from walking ard.. i was up since 7am that morning.. but damn it.. it's the long weekend!
Friday was down at Velvet for the "Newman" party.. it's free flow but i think i had enough on thurs night already... But i had a good time nevertheless.. meet John, Megan and even Denise! They're just really funky cool pple... never missing their weekend clubbing for years now... always there.. Cheers folks!
The saturday slowed down with just dinner and chilling out.. and sunday was just spending time recuperating from the lack of sleep and yes spending time with Dearest Mama on mother's day! I'm bring her for facial next weekend! Hope she likes her gift! :D
It's monday blues now as i prepare to get back to work on monday.. but i feel i'm finally settling in and liking my job! so "Peace on Earth"...
DJ Freshade @ DXO.. Spinning in the house!
The Geek In The Pink!
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Kev-in! Trying hard to act cute... They're a fun loving bunch!
My two babes.. Janice and ever best Cheryl...
~* Sunday, May 07, 2006 *~
I've been paying a close watch to the news regarding my area.. going for PAP and SDA rallies.. turning into the election news til now that it just ended... it has surely paid off...
I sure u all heard the good news at Potong Pasir!! Well, for most of us avid supporters for the opposition.. here goes.. 3 Cheers for Chiam See Tong!
I had the best drive home today! The whole of Potong Pasir Cheering.. and i happen to be driving back home just b4 our MP was welcome slightly pass 12am.. so yep! I was honking my honk all the way home to add to the cheering! Waving my hands in my little blue mini van!!
For once, i feel that we are like one Singapore.. my first taste of patriotism when we all cheered and welcome our favourite MP.. he's been here for the last 22 years and another 5 more to come!
We needed a voice in parliament and i'm sure He'll do us all proud! Mr Chiam, your're our Man!! It's a good and strong competition this year.. and i'm glad we have that.. That's what elections are all about! I love Potong Pasir.. there is just a different air here when you come walk our grounds.. and the election atmosphere.. aw... i wish u were all here... it's one amazing walk... :D
I sure u all heard the good news at Potong Pasir!! Well, for most of us avid supporters for the opposition.. here goes.. 3 Cheers for Chiam See Tong!
I had the best drive home today! The whole of Potong Pasir Cheering.. and i happen to be driving back home just b4 our MP was welcome slightly pass 12am.. so yep! I was honking my honk all the way home to add to the cheering! Waving my hands in my little blue mini van!!
For once, i feel that we are like one Singapore.. my first taste of patriotism when we all cheered and welcome our favourite MP.. he's been here for the last 22 years and another 5 more to come!
We needed a voice in parliament and i'm sure He'll do us all proud! Mr Chiam, your're our Man!! It's a good and strong competition this year.. and i'm glad we have that.. That's what elections are all about! I love Potong Pasir.. there is just a different air here when you come walk our grounds.. and the election atmosphere.. aw... i wish u were all here... it's one amazing walk... :D
I was so "on form" today.. wanted to blade but then my friends psycho me to go to sentosa... so.. heck.. decided to garung abit.. and try it out there.. anyway got Tim, he is a pro blader.. so wat's the worst that could happen?
Well.. It did.. and here i am with my bruised knee.... :(
Haiz.... compensation was that i got my Hoe Garden.. gotta see those cute Brazilian Soccer Guys at the Brazillian Soccer Event there.. Gotta meet up with my gang and babe Cheryl..
It's late.. i think i better get to sleep... it's been a great day with so many Good News from my bestest gf.. hee hee Congrats babe! the local news, my beloved, more fun activities planned for next week too! Sweet dreams!
Well.. It did.. and here i am with my bruised knee.... :(
Haiz.... compensation was that i got my Hoe Garden.. gotta see those cute Brazilian Soccer Guys at the Brazillian Soccer Event there.. Gotta meet up with my gang and babe Cheryl..
It's late.. i think i better get to sleep... it's been a great day with so many Good News from my bestest gf.. hee hee Congrats babe! the local news, my beloved, more fun activities planned for next week too! Sweet dreams!
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My Bad Fall... just cos i just had to try blading at sentosa... when i say the grounds are rough and not suited for blading.. TRUST ME!
~* Thursday, May 04, 2006 *~
Lord, grant me a quiet heart,
before exams start.
Lead me to use my leisure hours,
to invigorate my powers.
My mind from daydreams liberate,
give me the will to concentrate.
From all distractions set me free;
that in my studies I may be
a student with a sole fulfilment,
to make my work a sacrament.
From my faint heart in love expel,
all failures fears that there in dwell.
And from my pillow drive away,
all dark foreboding of the day.
Help me in faith to rest so deep,
that I may have untroubled sleep.
While notes and lectures I prepare,
may I not lost my zest for prayer.
And may I not forget to look,
for guidance in Thy Book.
And may I ever grateful be,
to all who daily pray for me.
While for myself I intercede,
for other students too I plead;
so may exams find
each one alert in heart and mind.
Thus inward joy and peace possessing,
May exams prove a source of blessing. Amen..
*From dear cranberrymist, thanks babe! And esp for all those having exams such as Daniel, Tamz and Ben.. May God be with you all...
~* Wednesday, May 03, 2006 *~
For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born,
and a time to die;
A time to plant,
and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill,
and a time to heal;
A time to break down,
and a time to build up;
A time to weep,
and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones,
and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek,
and a time to lose;
A time to keep,
and a time to throw away;
A time to tear,
and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
and a time to speak;
A time to love,
and a time to hate,
A time for war,
and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born,
and a time to die;
A time to plant,
and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill,
and a time to heal;
A time to break down,
and a time to build up;
A time to weep,
and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones,
and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek,
and a time to lose;
A time to keep,
and a time to throw away;
A time to tear,
and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
and a time to speak;
A time to love,
and a time to hate,
A time for war,
and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
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Finally down to studying... i'm studiously tagging my notes... decided to post some pics to show ya all my progress!
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My First Visit to the National Library.. I got a window seat with a great view... :D
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My Study Mates... and our table at the National Library!
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Ben 's anal arranging of M & M's... well.. we needed a break didn't we?!
P.S. Cheery M & M's to divert from the post below.. chocolates always help..
Don't understand why some pple would just take things for granted... I hate housework I really do... Even though i find it such a chore i willing do my fair share... but I feel worst when i have to do YOURS!!!
Then why do u come into my home, I like you as a person... I do... you're nice and all... I don't expect you to lift a finger, it's not your home... but why do ya.. why do ya just add on to my chores?!?!
It's not like i owe u anything.. it's not like we're related by blood.... I'm bloody tired but my bro yes he does help much ard the house.. he is my brother, i've got no choice and yes i love him more than you! so why knowing that you leave ur clothes here.. know that i or my mom is doing it... without a worry... and thinking that it's okie when u change ur clothes like mutiple times a day.. when i put more thots into what i wanna wear...
When my laundry only makes up 10% and i have to do all of urs!?!?!? My dad tells me to leave you both to do it urself.. but i don't wanna make things ugly... i suck it in.. day by day... but things ain't getting any better...
First you take up all the space in the toilet hang laundry hanger by leaving ur clothes there like 4ever.. then leave ur hanger around in the toilet... then don't flush the toilet properly.. then leave ur sanitary pad plastic in the laundry... don't bother to clear ur hair clogged up in the drain!?!?!?! WHY?!?!?
I can only make a face.. and hope that you both just get married and move out for good.. I wanna give ya love... but these just piles up... especially when you both only care abt urselves... brother included. I mean u do lift a finger or two.. but that's to the BARE MINIMAL...........
It's driving me MAD........ I don' wanna pick a quarrel or even a fuss... so if you happen to stumble upon this entry... Just help me out a little.. my life is filled with work one after another.. and now my exams.. working late all day long... can't you offer more help.. not just the just to entertain me once a week laundry wash.... or once a week ironing.... the my brother do... maybe u can just get him to do urs and i'll just shut up.. not my mom.. she is old and i do want her to relax more....
I'm already staying home to make sure the part time maid do most of the things that needs to be done around the house... it's my weekend sacrifice.. wat esle do you want from me??!?!?
I feel tired... i feel like ur maid or ah siam.... I feel that i'm unappreciated... that it's taken for granted and this only feeds into my deep deep hope that it'll all go away...... I love my life, don't get me wrong.. just not this particular part in it!
Then why do u come into my home, I like you as a person... I do... you're nice and all... I don't expect you to lift a finger, it's not your home... but why do ya.. why do ya just add on to my chores?!?!
It's not like i owe u anything.. it's not like we're related by blood.... I'm bloody tired but my bro yes he does help much ard the house.. he is my brother, i've got no choice and yes i love him more than you! so why knowing that you leave ur clothes here.. know that i or my mom is doing it... without a worry... and thinking that it's okie when u change ur clothes like mutiple times a day.. when i put more thots into what i wanna wear...
When my laundry only makes up 10% and i have to do all of urs!?!?!? My dad tells me to leave you both to do it urself.. but i don't wanna make things ugly... i suck it in.. day by day... but things ain't getting any better...
First you take up all the space in the toilet hang laundry hanger by leaving ur clothes there like 4ever.. then leave ur hanger around in the toilet... then don't flush the toilet properly.. then leave ur sanitary pad plastic in the laundry... don't bother to clear ur hair clogged up in the drain!?!?!?! WHY?!?!?
I can only make a face.. and hope that you both just get married and move out for good.. I wanna give ya love... but these just piles up... especially when you both only care abt urselves... brother included. I mean u do lift a finger or two.. but that's to the BARE MINIMAL...........
It's driving me MAD........ I don' wanna pick a quarrel or even a fuss... so if you happen to stumble upon this entry... Just help me out a little.. my life is filled with work one after another.. and now my exams.. working late all day long... can't you offer more help.. not just the just to entertain me once a week laundry wash.... or once a week ironing.... the my brother do... maybe u can just get him to do urs and i'll just shut up.. not my mom.. she is old and i do want her to relax more....
I'm already staying home to make sure the part time maid do most of the things that needs to be done around the house... it's my weekend sacrifice.. wat esle do you want from me??!?!?
I feel tired... i feel like ur maid or ah siam.... I feel that i'm unappreciated... that it's taken for granted and this only feeds into my deep deep hope that it'll all go away...... I love my life, don't get me wrong.. just not this particular part in it!
