So Much More....

 

Life hasn't been a breeze but I've seem to take on a more eternal perspective of things now as compared to b4.. As i slower let go of things that may have been holding me back... But not anymore.. cos sometimes it/you ain't worth it...

There is no point buinlding on things/situations/experiences that has already past.. cos history is gone and it's just yesterday's news that's thrown away in the bin...

There is just so much more to life... and I'm not going to let it pass me by... i'm not going to miss out this time round... no.... period "."

The exams are just 2 days away but i'm not stressed up.. the air feels fresher now that the haze is gone... the msg that i get are sweet and endearing... The unexpected call that came in the night was a pleasant surprise... the tiniest smallest littlest things just excites me...

That's life... cos that's how it should be lived....

I feel that I'm a better person already.... it's time.... that I started living cos there is so much more.... cos after the rain, the clouds cleared... the haziness that blurred my vision... is no longer there no more... and will no longer be.... I thank God for his Grace... for not giving up on me... cos i guess i've found my Joy for Living... not for myself... but for a greater purpose....

For the many seeds i sowed during the pass week... i thank you... for helping me... realised this.. for bringing back a dance in my song, a light to my soul... a fragance in the air... the sun over clear skies........ Yes............... I'm thankful...

For those who need a reason to Laugh... tis the one!!

 

You shld all take time out to watch this.. i'm laughing on the floor!! It's been a long time since i laughed this hard!! Those in office.. plug in ur earphones and listen hard!! This guy do remind me of my Maths tutor in Sec sch.. Mr Salim.. haha...

For the benefit of those who don't tune into Mr Brown...

And if that doesn't get you going....

These 2 cute guys lip synching to Jessica Simpson's "A Public Affair" definitely would!!

I love You Tube!!!

I'm on a Lisa Ono High........

 

I managed to sneak a pic inside the Esplanade... words cannot express the beauty of her voice... I'm still dizzy from her... aw.... sweet sweet voice.... I even felt like crying though one of her songs... "Dreams".... at moments when i close my eyes to listen.. to immerse in the presence.. I've no regrets going... none at all.... I shall leave it as that....

And of cos.. company wasn't bad either... haha... ; )

I'm going back to study!! Keep Focus!!... for now... haha.......

Happy is the Word of the Day..

 

In response to Cranberrymist and Sunflower's Bloggies... it's been on such a positive note that I too feel the infiltration to my life... Thanks babes for spreading the Joy!!

I sat down and thot.. wat's wrong with my life? Absolutely NOTHING!!!

Hence I just wanted to give thanks for all the "good things in life" too!!.... Life has been busy full of "xi shi".... good to be working at a good co with great colleagues... and studying to keep up to date... and of cos my fellow Bros & Sistas at Church have been nothing but delight... and Yes infact... I really do... Love my life!! damn those negative past weeks... cos it's over!!

and yes I wanna bombard this bloggy with lots and lots of happy pics!!! :D

Marriage Bliss

 

That's wat i've been seeing over the past weekend.. My brother is married! Goodness!! I still don't believe it myself when i say it out loud.. my very own brother!! ok ok.. let's not drama it..

Watching them exchange vows... I wished nothing but blessings for them... everything just pasted so quickly so surreal... I still feel that reality haven't really sinked in... maybe the wedding dinner coming up next month would realign my sentiments.. and thots to wat's real...

My bro and me.. we had a rough sibling relationship.. with really bad downs when we did not speak to each other for 2 years.. and now we're more like friends.. at times confiding in each other for major life decisions... and of cos the silent support we each other in critical times as well.. This is my brother whom i grew up with.. now he is a man with a family of his own.. moving along in life.. I'm truly happy for him... Congrates Bro! To many years of Blissful Happiness!!

On sat was Mel hair's ROM... and the venue and ceremony and atmostphere was just breath-taking.. no words would really describe it the way it should be... hence i'll post up more pics later... Mel and Brandon have been dating for 7 years, it's like finally they're married and i say the wait was totally worth it.. Her wedding carefully and merticulously well planned.. it's an honour for me to attend!! Mel Hair!! A toast to ya both!! Cheers!!

Sad to say.. I've always thot of marriange as a piece of paper.. just a day... overly glorified... but the previous past days made me change my mind... it's a symbolic act of two people joined together and making a commitment not only to themselves, to their families, friends and love ones... In sickness and in health.. for better for worst.. as they both shall live... to make a promise to each other... and to the rest of the world... now that's a promise!!

Can I have one out of point moment? Do u notice any difference? haha... :P

Bro's ROM... The Big Day Finaly Arrives. . 20 Oct 2006

 

Introducing the Bride (Carol) and Groom(Alvin)..

A pic with Bride.. All Pretty and Elegant

Outside the ROM Room.. B4 Signing the Papers

Don't the flowers look pretty?

Presenting Mr and Mrs Wan.. Rings exchanged and Certified!!

Off t oBotanic Gardens.. but i didn't take any cos the pics still with Camera Man.. but mom taking a break by the fountain...

Dinner after with the in-laws... Carol's little bro and mom

Like all family traditions... Kaoroke Singing at major celebrations.. in the VIP room.. Cover your Ears!!

Dad's 53th Birthday..

 

With My family..

Birthday Cake Finale... Happy birthday Daddy..

Thank You For Loving Me

 

Someone once asked me "if there is only one song i could play.. for the rest of my life.. wat song would it be?"... and this is my song of choice... and I would like to dedicate it to you reading this now..

I must mean something to take time out to read this stupid blog... I miss you.. I love you... and Thank you... For Loving me... :D

Party's Over..

 

My pity party that is... yep... I've really had enough of throwing anymore pity parties.....
Sorry if i get any of ya down... don't mean to unneccessary draw all the attention to myself..
To make your problem seem small compared to my... i do have my issues I admit...
Though I'm not all 100% "A" okie.. It's time to move on with the rest of my life..
I haven't blog either cos i pretty much have nothing positive to say til today...

I've going start my Studies Battle... Today.. I'm even going out to study to make sure I study..
Yes even if it means to Mac or library like other students..... Just hope it's not too crowded...
I'm looking forward to my Bro's ROM just 1+ days away on friday... I'm happy for him
That he has found his "one" and now ready to start a family..... Congrats Bro!!

This week has been refreshing and I felt like I've found my laugther once again...
and I'll be on super duper long leave........ to accomplish none other than study!! Urgh!!
okie that's half true.. considering my 2 ROMs to attend... & Lisa Ono concert!!
I'm counting down to the concert already!!

Finally finished clearing my emails after getting it fixed today back in office..... wat a drag it was today when i had to go back office to get it repaired and to claim my cab fares of near $400 for the pass month!! Woah!! the managers had better approve my claims!

The haze doesn't seem to be getting any better.. but I really wanna go for my blading!! and to run!! I mean i'm finally on leave there is no better time to do my fav sports!! and I need to train for my SGX run too!! Alrightzy enough of crap talk.. i need to go zzz....... til next time!!

The day b4 the bride-to-be ties the knot..... The Ultimate Hen's Party Ever!!

 

Who better to Pin the Queen Bunny's tail?....

Bad Day

 

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

By Daniel Powter

*Thanks for listening...

The Time is NOW!!

 

I believe the time is NOW....
To truly live as you believe it...
Not to look back with regrets..
No more pity party...
Enough of grumbling & whining..

Cos I've thot it thru....
It's to truly enjoy wat you're doing..
And Yes I have many Loves in my life..
That i may have lose sight of.. or neglected..

From now on I wanna embrace them...
I dun wanna seat in the back seat of my life..
To flow along life... it may be an ordinary life..
But there are lots to treasure...

U know how you always receive those emails..
With forwarded attachments which you pass on..
I thank God for not deleting them today...

Things that held a especially deep meaning for me:

• You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life. ~ Albert Camus
• Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful. ~ Albert Schweitzer
• P.U.S.H for Life
• God calls us to a task, but never did He tell us the result.. it may fail or succeed or just remained unchanged, but He asked us to have faith and obedience... and to just do wat He has asked of us... Just like pushing a rock, the rock might never move unless God moves it.. our job is just to push....
• P = Pray
  U = Until
  S = Something
  H = Happens
• To be humble... this relates to someone from my work who is 30 years old and even though he is just 1 grade below me, his humble, enthusiatic nature inspired me... I thank God for showing me wat it really means to always put myself below others.. Thanks Kelvin! Wished I could tell ya this, but I've felt that I've learn more from you than anyone taught me since i started work.. (but wait, i need to sort out my pride issue first.. haha..)
• "I long to accomplish a great and noble tasks, but it is my chief duty to accomplish humble tasks as though they were great and noble. The world is moved along, not only by the mighty shoves of its heroes, but also by the aggregate of the tiny pushes of each honest worker." ~ Helen Keller

Internalisation/Implications on my life

• To give thanks in all I do...
• To know it's all about direction and not distance
• I know i like audit.. hence to do my best and not be easily discourage by others or situations or obtacles and challenges
• To learn to trust God, to keep the faith and to learn obedience
• To keep on PRAYing
• To embrace my thirst for knowledge and excellence once again... To the Books!!!

My head feels lighter with my clear mindedness today... I've felt that our sorted our my thots and priorities. I've taken stock of my life and now the Time is Now.. in the present to live the life that God has in mind for me.. not to dwell on life's unpleasant hiccups... or lament on how life could be better when it could be changed now...

Talking to someone i hold close also revealed how much I've grown.. and we both agreed on one thing... and yes i may chose to look back and remember those precious memories.. Life still goes on... and time waits for no man..... I know God has a plan for each of us.. hence i'll be sitting here waiting for his cue.... Amen!

I'm not as Bright anymore.....

 

It's been a rough day..... very demoralising actually....
Cos it's been a while since i really worked.. cos of the off peak
And also it's seems that i've left very much of my accounting behind...
Maybe cos i'm PMSing.. or mabe b'cos i'm just tired.. or could it be
that my work engine is still heating up...

Wat I can say is that I've tried my best...
I've look thru everything i could.. I've thot til my brains are fried..
I've tried to tile figues which doesn't work out cos it's just not done that way..
But I TRIED.........

Yet I sense that my efforts would go unnoticed.... my seeming trials
to understand simple but forgotten concepts would just overwrite
watever good i put into my work....... the strange tension i feel in the room...
when I've done and redone what someone esle did wrongly... but i feel
that i can't tell anyone... cos it'll just seem that I'm pushing blame...
that I'm just trying to upload on someone esle......

I think my TIC probably feels that way already......
I'm disappointed with myself..... with work....
With how i manage the situation.... but how?!
I felt that I put in my Best 100% already...
Doesn't that count?

My late nights staying up like to day to somehow make things work...
To complete my documentation... seems so endless.....
I took breaks after work to go out.. get some free air.. to have dinner...
Which i felt did me good.. cos now.. i feel more like myself...
I feel that I'm a better person....... and the day doesn't seem to bad when
You have something to look forward to........

I'm down with slight sickness but my continual insomnia from work
Won't help much.......
With manager down tomorrow.. and DnD in the evening......
I wonder how I can get from home to the venue.... or how
can i get my things done in time....

But i tell myself that at the end of the day....
WORK will always be WORK........
I pray that i'll somehow survive tomorrow with only 3 hrs left to zzz...
Yet I need to rant for a bit b4 i go to bed......

I wish for the weekend to come... and to have no coaching notes tomorrow..
Pray for me will ya..... thanks! :D

Nothing esle can beat a Blue Monday better than....

 

Meeting up with my closest babe... U know I never really felt i can be myself......
it's been a while that i'm not been myself.... after talking to some familiar someone...
Who is there to offer good advice.. i finally.... felt like i've found myself once again..
Thinking back of our old Uni days... It was like i lost myself in the hustle and bustle
Of busyness, of routines, of days gone by.......

When we whiz ourself into the plastic world.....................
I had a very blue monday today.. cos of my work unfinished..
Cos of a heartbreaking conversation the night b4......
Because of the monthly dorse of melancholy.......

I guess today i've accomplished somewhat...
I went out for a good dinner..... took time out to catch my breath.......
To walk leisurely down the streets of orchard......
Stopping for some mooncake tasting......
To just chat over nothing and everything......
Staying up late to finally finish wat I needed to......

To know when to hold on and when to let go......
Hope this week goes as smoothly too.........
At least my lack of sleep paid off for the past week...