Simple Thoughts.... Complex Thinking..... In Search For An Answer
~* Thursday, August 31, 2006 *~
Welcome Welcome... An Activity Filled Weekend Once again!!.. here goes my Sebana Cove Update... My Co's Counselling Group Outing 2006!!
Tracie and Me with our Sunnies... Yay.. we have finally arrived...
My Fellow A2 David... I must comment him... he is always super helpful.. Really appreciate all ur help!! but then I help ya plan the outdoor games... so offset already right?!
Allan Loves the Camera!! He like posing all day when You take ur camera out!!
Allan!! Jessica's Son... he Is sooo Cute!! Don't ya wanna pinch those cheeks....:P
First Time I Do puzzle in the middle of the Forest.. haha.. Reads.. SOS!! U got that right!!
My Sebana Race Team!!!
A relaxing stay at Sebana Cove.. with so much greenery and..
A lake outside our front pouch... serenity....
Which boat should I own one day... All so nice.. I can't decide... Hmm....
A Group Pic B4 we leave!!.....All like so tired from all the waiting the ferry came 45 min late!!!
Allan Says Bye Bye.. Time to go Home....
~* Tuesday, August 29, 2006 *~
Every time i have a conversation with you... is just filled with such hurt... such injustice.. such insults.. such rage... such rejection... watever it is.. it ain't good.......
Why?
Cos when someone opens their heart... you trample over it..
When you offer a listening ear.. and all misery poured out was so matter-a-factly swepted..
When tears rolled down... you said it brought ya stress and asked me to grow up...
When unstable steps were taken in a time of distress and I called up for comfort... you said it was like that from the start..
Telling me things that I knew all along... you offered a listening ear.. a shoulder for support..
All of which wasn't provided... maybe it's revenge.. maybe it's a reap what i've sow... then i guess i've had enough.. of it ... of you...
Then tell me how can one experience growth when it's shot down on attempt...
Pushed away with a brush of the eye....
Don't worry.. as i've said it has all come to an end... with you would be just
cheery thots... a fake mask like how the everyone esle enjoyed...
Where Life is always going on a smooth path.... and of cos... Positivity abound..
Cos you've closed the door... slamed it shut...
Don't ask me why... don't tell me to be positive.. cos now... "NOW" I am positive and I am always GREAT! Welcome... to the rest of the world.. enjoy! :D
Why?
Cos when someone opens their heart... you trample over it..
When you offer a listening ear.. and all misery poured out was so matter-a-factly swepted..
When tears rolled down... you said it brought ya stress and asked me to grow up...
When unstable steps were taken in a time of distress and I called up for comfort... you said it was like that from the start..
Telling me things that I knew all along... you offered a listening ear.. a shoulder for support..
All of which wasn't provided... maybe it's revenge.. maybe it's a reap what i've sow... then i guess i've had enough.. of it ... of you...
Then tell me how can one experience growth when it's shot down on attempt...
Pushed away with a brush of the eye....
Don't worry.. as i've said it has all come to an end... with you would be just
cheery thots... a fake mask like how the everyone esle enjoyed...
Where Life is always going on a smooth path.... and of cos... Positivity abound..
Cos you've closed the door... slamed it shut...
Don't ask me why... don't tell me to be positive.. cos now... "NOW" I am positive and I am always GREAT! Welcome... to the rest of the world.. enjoy! :D
~* Monday, August 28, 2006 *~
I'm back from Sunny Sebana Cove!! Full Story comin up.. stay tune...
~* Monday, August 21, 2006 *~
.1.jpg)
Finally bring it in.. but only at Candy Empire... I love them!! Feel in love with them at Sydney... They can be my Breakfast, Lunch or Dinner literally... no need to ship boxes over anymore!! :D
~* Friday, August 18, 2006 *~
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
M: Yep that's wat I'll probably do...
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
M: When i'm in love... I'll smile excessively.. I'll have my head in the clouds... floating all day long...
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.
M: I guess if the right one comes along... the right one at the right time...
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
M: Admirers?! Where?!
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
M: I'm dreading my 2 CPA Papers coming up in Oct.. Time to get down to studying.. I'll try to start tomorow!
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
M: Burning excess energy in my line... Definitely til there is none left.....
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
M: I'm a firm believer that you can do anything if you put your heart and mind to it!
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
M: Maybe... maybe not... depends...
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
M: Is this just generic or does it really describes me?
Try it for Yourself!!
Psychological Test
Here is the analysis:
You have a complicated personality.
How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: Peak.
You try to please everyone, the size of this personality as seen by others is very big.
Diamond means stubborn personality.
You are also unpredictable, wild and exciting.
You are an opportunist.
Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble.
I went on a shopping spree over the week... I guess must be cos i've more spare cash since i quit clubbing... and now that I don't have time to go out at night.. I do save alot!
I know I should save but... wait listen to my story...... I was at a sale and saw this lovely lovely skirt hanging....... I thot sale wat.. shld just give it a try... and then........ I fell in love with the skirt.. now it's the most expensive piece of clothing I have ever own ever.... so.. pardon me for all this hoo haa... it's a BIG DEAL...... to me at least.. well, let's just say it's a spurge that I got for a steal... don't ask me the price.. let me just enjoy my extravagant skirt... I'm sure i'll make good use of it.. maybe for my upcoming Dinner and Dance.. so wat it's casual... I think it's gorgeous... :P
And then.. I also have the perfect Heels to Match... and of cos.. with my new "tai tai status"... I went shopping for credit cards too!! *blush*
Well... I get discounts, Spa & Facial vouchers, free use of gym, rebates, promotions, Gym Bag, Suitcase, free weekend parking at ORCHARD!!! Wah.... Sorry.. I just can't say no...
A Day in Tai Tai Kingdom... A Day too little... I'm merely a wannabe... so My New Fav Skirt.... Hah... Now what I need is to find my prince...... and My roadster... My perfect holiday.... and of cos... A Tai Tai job... not there is one... but I intend to invent one!! One where you run your own biz... on remote control.. and make lots of $$.. meet all your impt clients... socialize.. sip fine wine... then.. I'll be living in Tai Tai Paradise... oh mine... i sound so bimbotic.. certainly not myself today... must be all my work getting to my head.... :D
I know I should save but... wait listen to my story...... I was at a sale and saw this lovely lovely skirt hanging....... I thot sale wat.. shld just give it a try... and then........ I fell in love with the skirt.. now it's the most expensive piece of clothing I have ever own ever.... so.. pardon me for all this hoo haa... it's a BIG DEAL...... to me at least.. well, let's just say it's a spurge that I got for a steal... don't ask me the price.. let me just enjoy my extravagant skirt... I'm sure i'll make good use of it.. maybe for my upcoming Dinner and Dance.. so wat it's casual... I think it's gorgeous... :P
And then.. I also have the perfect Heels to Match... and of cos.. with my new "tai tai status"... I went shopping for credit cards too!! *blush*
Well... I get discounts, Spa & Facial vouchers, free use of gym, rebates, promotions, Gym Bag, Suitcase, free weekend parking at ORCHARD!!! Wah.... Sorry.. I just can't say no...
A Day in Tai Tai Kingdom... A Day too little... I'm merely a wannabe... so My New Fav Skirt.... Hah... Now what I need is to find my prince...... and My roadster... My perfect holiday.... and of cos... A Tai Tai job... not there is one... but I intend to invent one!! One where you run your own biz... on remote control.. and make lots of $$.. meet all your impt clients... socialize.. sip fine wine... then.. I'll be living in Tai Tai Paradise... oh mine... i sound so bimbotic.. certainly not myself today... must be all my work getting to my head.... :D
Trying on my New skirt... my BCBG MAXAZARIA Designer skirt...
A Wolfy Handshake for Approval!!
.jpg)
Of cos... New Heels to match... Aren't they lovely? I have a thing for white stuff nowadays...
Check out the Price Tag.. OOooh... *Jaw Drops*
I Lurve it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~* Wednesday, August 16, 2006 *~
Today was pretty good though I was busy... cos i gotta go home at 4pm!!! Reach home by 5pm.. but that doesn't mean anything.. got i did my casting (which means checking of totals in audit) til now.... but i'm still glad that I got a short break in between... cos my bestest gf called me!!
Jiayi dropped me a call at abt 8pm today... I'm glad you called... cos it's just one of those chats where we mutter crap.. where i know i don't have to think b4 i talk... before i know she loves me all the same... and yes... we met up for an early dinner on national day... and I brought wolfy along!!... haha... even though we had to bake in the sun... i think we did just fine.. wiping our foreheads occasionally... we were at liquid cafe.. the young waiters there quite cute and considerate... allowing me to eat there with wolfy and offering me a bowl when they spoted me feeding him out of my hand.. yes... I did.. and it's water mind you.. but i love my dog... so a little of his tongue didn't hurt.... too bad my other bestest friend faith couldn't join us... we miss ya...
I was counting all my bestest friends and i have more than a handful... and I thank God for all of ya... other than my fair weathered friend of cos... yep i'm still not over it... very disappointed... but life goes on.........
Tomorrow i'm on L & E!!! Yay.. which mean i can go home early!! and Kevin has volunteered to help me buy stuff at his staff discount... wat an angel... dont' look like one though.. haha... just kidding.. he is this obnoxious funny guy who is good at heart... like the one my cousin wanted to intro me to.. but too obnoxious... and narcisstic for my liking... as brother can lah...
So tomorrow i'm going for once enjoy my "Time Out" day.. when our firms advocate us to go home early... I'm overjoyed... over one stupid day when i can go home early... but i'm meeting Ashley for dinner, it's her last day at work.. she is leaving to go somewhere esle... i'm going to miss her... she was so nice to join me at my church's Laser Quest.. will post pics once i get hold of any... it was fun!!
Time to catch some sleep.. i need to reach office at 8am!! cos need to check some stuff b4 my training starts at 8:30am... sweet dreams....
Jiayi dropped me a call at abt 8pm today... I'm glad you called... cos it's just one of those chats where we mutter crap.. where i know i don't have to think b4 i talk... before i know she loves me all the same... and yes... we met up for an early dinner on national day... and I brought wolfy along!!... haha... even though we had to bake in the sun... i think we did just fine.. wiping our foreheads occasionally... we were at liquid cafe.. the young waiters there quite cute and considerate... allowing me to eat there with wolfy and offering me a bowl when they spoted me feeding him out of my hand.. yes... I did.. and it's water mind you.. but i love my dog... so a little of his tongue didn't hurt.... too bad my other bestest friend faith couldn't join us... we miss ya...
I was counting all my bestest friends and i have more than a handful... and I thank God for all of ya... other than my fair weathered friend of cos... yep i'm still not over it... very disappointed... but life goes on.........
Tomorrow i'm on L & E!!! Yay.. which mean i can go home early!! and Kevin has volunteered to help me buy stuff at his staff discount... wat an angel... dont' look like one though.. haha... just kidding.. he is this obnoxious funny guy who is good at heart... like the one my cousin wanted to intro me to.. but too obnoxious... and narcisstic for my liking... as brother can lah...
So tomorrow i'm going for once enjoy my "Time Out" day.. when our firms advocate us to go home early... I'm overjoyed... over one stupid day when i can go home early... but i'm meeting Ashley for dinner, it's her last day at work.. she is leaving to go somewhere esle... i'm going to miss her... she was so nice to join me at my church's Laser Quest.. will post pics once i get hold of any... it was fun!!
Time to catch some sleep.. i need to reach office at 8am!! cos need to check some stuff b4 my training starts at 8:30am... sweet dreams....
Wolfy, Sandwich and Me!!... lucky liquid cafe let us seat outside.. if not we didn't know where to go with wolfy... anyone know any nice pet cafe to recommend?
Sunny Jiayi striking a pose with Wolfy!! Both looking just as cheery...
Good Food with Great Company! I'm having Smoked Salmon Sandwich and Jiayi with her pasta!!
~* Sunday, August 13, 2006 *~
.jpg)
Just as we were leaving the resturant, I was told by my pals that it's fireworks festival today..
We rush outside.. stood by the river and glaze into the sky.. like a roar of thunder... and shoots from the canon.. they were showered into the dark night sky...
Beautiful.. they're a spendour to watch... and can you believe it i can't even recall when was the last time i watch fireworks.. it must have been some time during the new year or chingay festival.. and i wonder why i can't recall it...
They're so short lived, gone within a moment.. lost in the night... I guess i never really notice or took effort to go watch fireworks... but standing there that night... desperately trying to capture the moment on my HP... it seems rather silly...
I wonder if love was like that?.. sweet and short lived... when we desperately try to make something out of it and in the end it's all forgotten.. it's all history and the sparks... it'll always die off... is it all part of harsh reality that we are force to learn over time? and in the end... then qn we ask ourselves is whether it's worth the effort... like how pple rush to get a good spot.. or running into the long jam along Benjamin Sheares Bridge.. and for lucky some.. just happen to be there when it happens...
I have no idea... it's just a thot... but yep.. I had a wonderful time that night... and understood wat it meant to watch a "breathtaking scene" when we just all stood frozen in time.. not talking.. not breathing.. I'll try to remember to catch them next year...
~* Friday, August 11, 2006 *~
I'm on 2 days of MC cos i'm getting my sore eyes again.. it's damn irritating!! When it itches and yet you can't rub it... then it is sort of swelling... a little red.. but lucky it's looking back to normal again......... I always gets it a few times a year.. why am i so prone?!
I really needed this break.. really!! I'm feelin kinda down and depressed cos of work.. with so many arrows flying at me left right and centre... With friends leaving... and just feeling all stressed up over.. at times... nothing...
I've been resting.. but not very restful.. as I'm still following up on my clients... constantly checking my email.. battling myself to get out of bed to make that phone call........ but yep.. I did in the end......
I wrote off a friendship today... cos I thot it just wasn't worth it... and life is perhaps better that way......
At least tonight there is Chin Lin's farewell gathering at Boat Quay... something i can look forward to.. I'm some how envious of pple who get a chance to leave... I wanna leave.. but yet I know I can't just gotta hang in there for a bit now... but when some one tell me that they're leaving.. i say "congrats"... cos i know they hav a better place out there! another 3 more pple i know leaving this month... talk abt fast turnover!...
I really needed this break.. really!! I'm feelin kinda down and depressed cos of work.. with so many arrows flying at me left right and centre... With friends leaving... and just feeling all stressed up over.. at times... nothing...
I've been resting.. but not very restful.. as I'm still following up on my clients... constantly checking my email.. battling myself to get out of bed to make that phone call........ but yep.. I did in the end......
I wrote off a friendship today... cos I thot it just wasn't worth it... and life is perhaps better that way......
At least tonight there is Chin Lin's farewell gathering at Boat Quay... something i can look forward to.. I'm some how envious of pple who get a chance to leave... I wanna leave.. but yet I know I can't just gotta hang in there for a bit now... but when some one tell me that they're leaving.. i say "congrats"... cos i know they hav a better place out there! another 3 more pple i know leaving this month... talk abt fast turnover!...
~* Thursday, August 10, 2006 *~
When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. - Henri Nouwen
A friendship was offered
One that is unconditional...
Thinking that you know me best...
I was wrong...
For you only cared for yourself
and your daily duties...
Dismissing my misery
With a turn of an eye...
I thot that you would be there...
Just to listen, just to share...
Not to insult or throw judgement
Of self nacisistic remarks...
Disappointment and Dispair
Deepens more than ever before..
I wish you the best...
My fair weather friend...
B'cos I won't be there.....
One that is unconditional...
Thinking that you know me best...
I was wrong...
For you only cared for yourself
and your daily duties...
Dismissing my misery
With a turn of an eye...
I thot that you would be there...
Just to listen, just to share...
Not to insult or throw judgement
Of self nacisistic remarks...
Disappointment and Dispair
Deepens more than ever before..
I wish you the best...
My fair weather friend...
B'cos I won't be there.....
~* Wednesday, August 09, 2006 *~
Tonight went rather okie.. met up to chill with good pal Alex.. he apparently just got his license and offered to take me for a spin... ended up in Yishun where so call biker and racers chicks and dudes hang out... Not much of a happening though... but good time catching up...
But I somehow feel that something isn't quite right... I miss Mr D.. I dunno why.. is it love? is it loneliness? Lust?.... I feel that i'm exploding inside with all these emotions and thots... that I can't express...... it's probably one sided anyways........ so heck... I'll probably be over it in a week..
I'm just searching..... for something more in my life....... it's a hard journey to take....... and yet i think i'm getting there...... A profound thot that I've realised.. from my maturity... from grace... and from time......
There is this excitement that i wished i could describe... of the things to come.. of the uncertainly.. or surprises... I just wonder wonder wonder... :D
But I somehow feel that something isn't quite right... I miss Mr D.. I dunno why.. is it love? is it loneliness? Lust?.... I feel that i'm exploding inside with all these emotions and thots... that I can't express...... it's probably one sided anyways........ so heck... I'll probably be over it in a week..
I'm just searching..... for something more in my life....... it's a hard journey to take....... and yet i think i'm getting there...... A profound thot that I've realised.. from my maturity... from grace... and from time......
There is this excitement that i wished i could describe... of the things to come.. of the uncertainly.. or surprises... I just wonder wonder wonder... :D
~* Saturday, August 05, 2006 *~
And here is how it goes, I was at my Fav Prata place at Thomson.. with Mr D for supper... well, when i sat down... didn't realise anything.. the next thing i know when i got up... i went to look for my fav abung to order food... but couldn't find him...
The next thing i know........ it's like i think u sat on something.. there is something on ur pants... My PINK colour ZARA three quarter pants!!!!!!!.... within a matter of seconds... it's gone.. my pride.. my dignity... i felt... lots of Curry.. when i sweep my hand over my bottoms... Damn!!
While i was leaving... I bumped into my old SMU school mate.. then i had to get up to talk if not very rude....hence i guess.. the other half of the pple at the coffeeshop saw my blunder... it's bad.. I tell ya it's bad....
In public.. i was parading ard.. trying to look for my fav guy... it's not my day really........ some more with my Mr D... how can this be?!?!?!... bad bad bad............ luckily he offered to drive my car up front for me to rush in... not realisating it was that bad... now my car seat is all dirtied...
When i got home.. i got a rude shock when i looked into the mirror cos Mr D manage to calm me down telling me it's not that bad.. and it's dark.. can barely see... what esle could go wrong right? i just needed to get the stain off...
Hence, I desperately tried to wash the strain off with detergent... no luck... i decided to use something stronger.. "bleach"... but i used the "white bleach" instead.. the stain got off alright.. along with the colour...
I guess it's time for me to go shopping again........... to get a new pants.... and most importantly.. to get retail therapy!! :(
The next thing i know........ it's like i think u sat on something.. there is something on ur pants... My PINK colour ZARA three quarter pants!!!!!!!.... within a matter of seconds... it's gone.. my pride.. my dignity... i felt... lots of Curry.. when i sweep my hand over my bottoms... Damn!!
While i was leaving... I bumped into my old SMU school mate.. then i had to get up to talk if not very rude....hence i guess.. the other half of the pple at the coffeeshop saw my blunder... it's bad.. I tell ya it's bad....
In public.. i was parading ard.. trying to look for my fav guy... it's not my day really........ some more with my Mr D... how can this be?!?!?!... bad bad bad............ luckily he offered to drive my car up front for me to rush in... not realisating it was that bad... now my car seat is all dirtied...
When i got home.. i got a rude shock when i looked into the mirror cos Mr D manage to calm me down telling me it's not that bad.. and it's dark.. can barely see... what esle could go wrong right? i just needed to get the stain off...
Hence, I desperately tried to wash the strain off with detergent... no luck... i decided to use something stronger.. "bleach"... but i used the "white bleach" instead.. the stain got off alright.. along with the colour...
I guess it's time for me to go shopping again........... to get a new pants.... and most importantly.. to get retail therapy!! :(
~* Wednesday, August 02, 2006 *~
A smile.. will always bring a light to your face...
As we look back and smile on life's troubles...
It's not abt our sinful desires...
It's not about money...
It's not abt material needs...
It's about being happy...
Of inner peace and joy...
Which comes from within..
Like our inner child.. when we bring her out...
When we can look upon things with such innocence..
without slander or hidden agenda..
Smile.. just smile...
and the rest will follow......
As we look back and smile on life's troubles...
It's not abt our sinful desires...
It's not about money...
It's not abt material needs...
It's about being happy...
Of inner peace and joy...
Which comes from within..
Like our inner child.. when we bring her out...
When we can look upon things with such innocence..
without slander or hidden agenda..
Smile.. just smile...
and the rest will follow......
Bubbles in the Bath... a rubba dub dub... So cute right!?!?.. if i ever have a kid.. he has gotta be at least this adorable...
Picture Perfect shots... if life was this good.. little cousin joyce and friend...
