Simple Thoughts.... Complex Thinking..... In Search For An Answer
~* Saturday, June 23, 2007 *~
It's been such a brilliant great week for me.. from church camp.. it was a mountain top experience.. one I immerse so deeply.. I cried.. I closed my eyes hoping that that very moment won't go away..
My renewed love for the Lord.. I've caught the spirit.. one not my own.. My soul is overflowing.. I just want to remember.. to never let go of "now"... cos finally I feel the peace.. I forgot the bitterness... My goggles clean and focus... I believe in love, hope and peace.....
With some things not getting in my way, some things I realised that I could do nothing but give up.. it was too self-destructive no matter how i tried to make it good...... I learn to love myself sometimes... this time more than others... perhaps things are better this way...
I made many new friends.. caught up with many old ones.. I talked alot abt the spiritual aspects of our human life... not to judge, not to conquer, not to make new arguments... just to spread the love ard.. to clear steorotypes of cold mindsets of imperfect reality of christainity... I believe I made a mark.. I wanna stand up and shout.. to do wat I can... little or big... I'm one person.. but I know God work is mysterious ways... not so I can gain merits.. not for my personal benefit but merely cos I love and care... for you.. for others... in wat I think is best..... just try to understand that... cos I want to share wat I have, it's not mine.. it's meant to be out there......
I don't have doubts.. I don't want to want deception to come in.. cos I came out of taking the wrong side.. It's a tough walk.. it's a relieve.. it's a breakthru.. I pray to God.. that this moment.. this realization be buried deep in my heart and soul.. cos I dun wanna run away from You no more...
My renewed love for the Lord.. I've caught the spirit.. one not my own.. My soul is overflowing.. I just want to remember.. to never let go of "now"... cos finally I feel the peace.. I forgot the bitterness... My goggles clean and focus... I believe in love, hope and peace.....
With some things not getting in my way, some things I realised that I could do nothing but give up.. it was too self-destructive no matter how i tried to make it good...... I learn to love myself sometimes... this time more than others... perhaps things are better this way...
I made many new friends.. caught up with many old ones.. I talked alot abt the spiritual aspects of our human life... not to judge, not to conquer, not to make new arguments... just to spread the love ard.. to clear steorotypes of cold mindsets of imperfect reality of christainity... I believe I made a mark.. I wanna stand up and shout.. to do wat I can... little or big... I'm one person.. but I know God work is mysterious ways... not so I can gain merits.. not for my personal benefit but merely cos I love and care... for you.. for others... in wat I think is best..... just try to understand that... cos I want to share wat I have, it's not mine.. it's meant to be out there......
I don't have doubts.. I don't want to want deception to come in.. cos I came out of taking the wrong side.. It's a tough walk.. it's a relieve.. it's a breakthru.. I pray to God.. that this moment.. this realization be buried deep in my heart and soul.. cos I dun wanna run away from You no more...
~* Monday, June 18, 2007 *~
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~* Sunday, June 17, 2007 *~
I'll give up one day.........
Cos friends don't make the other feel lousy/used/abused/taken for granted......
Even strangers shows care and concern.......
If you can't, if you don't have time........
Don't expect me too.......
And if you think this friendship is not worth of your any time/effort....... which i did my best to sustain...
Perhaps I shld think like wise too......... I don't wanna be treated like some fool.......
I'm just human after all.......
Cos friends don't make the other feel lousy/used/abused/taken for granted......
Even strangers shows care and concern.......
If you can't, if you don't have time........
Don't expect me too.......
And if you think this friendship is not worth of your any time/effort....... which i did my best to sustain...
Perhaps I shld think like wise too......... I don't wanna be treated like some fool.......
I'm just human after all.......
Everyone seem to be having one on their bloggy......... so wat the heck? I shall put mine up too!!
~* Friday, June 15, 2007 *~
To say I'm back... sorry for any unreplied smses... cos I really
Didn't on my HP for 4 days!! Amazing!!...
It feels great to be disconnected so much so that my outburst of
connectivity was a rush.. a outpouring of days to catch up on....
Church camp went incredibly.. A definite breakthru'...
I'm a changed person, with a revived heart, a renewed mind &
A Uplifted Spirit.......
I thank God for the many little and big things.. for all the pple
who never gave up, who encouraged me.. who stood by me...
I now stand victorious... for pple... the battle has already been won..
and I've found the courage to claim the victory...... :D
Didn't on my HP for 4 days!! Amazing!!...
It feels great to be disconnected so much so that my outburst of
connectivity was a rush.. a outpouring of days to catch up on....
Church camp went incredibly.. A definite breakthru'...
I'm a changed person, with a revived heart, a renewed mind &
A Uplifted Spirit.......
I thank God for the many little and big things.. for all the pple
who never gave up, who encouraged me.. who stood by me...
I now stand victorious... for pple... the battle has already been won..
and I've found the courage to claim the victory...... :D
~* Sunday, June 10, 2007 *~
It's another step for me...
The sharing of this bloggy......
I wonder if it'll affect how you think of me..
But i guess... this will always be me....
As I hope to see the meeting of your mind
So... some pointers...
The sharing of this bloggy......
I wonder if it'll affect how you think of me..
But i guess... this will always be me....
As I hope to see the meeting of your mind
So... some pointers...
- Ask when in doubt
- Don't jump to conclusions
- Keep an open mind
- Laugh with me.. cos I laugh at myself all the time...
~* Saturday, June 09, 2007 *~
Fre(n) sh... My fav dessert like no other...
Tea anyone?
With Ling!! The world is like a brighter place...
Peanut Butter Thick Toast... like the gd old days of supper.. with you know who.... too bad you're not there to enjoy with me?
Coffee time with Eliz and Carol at "Paisley and Cream"..
ice blended to our taste along with sumptious bread pudding and strawberry cheese cake.. yum..
The pink duos... Eliz is such a pinky too.. don't you think we match we just fit right in?
Nothing Beats suntanning with my Babe Cheryl...
And effects of too much sun screen... lol....
how abt a swim by the pool bar?....
Q & A Sessions
It's so nice to be Happy! Sha...lala....la..
~* Friday, June 08, 2007 *~
This break is GREEEAAATTTT.... wanted to post some pics but apparently blogger is down for that function........
Just so that you all know that i'm alive.. lol.........
This week has been nothing but relaxing.... meet up with all that are close to my heart... a renewal of mind, heart and soul.............
Nothing like a breath of fresh air........ of not thinking abt work..........
I realised that indeed we shall not live in vain....... I refused to live in the past... or even to think abt the injustices, hurts and pains....... cos I've forgiven, forgotten and I live afresh............
I had a great time this week....... facial, pinic, movie, blading, beach bumming, cocktails, wine appreciation, shopping, high teas, girl talk, guy talk, babysitting the love of my life.........
& guess wat.... tomorrow morning i'm headed for a jog at the cemetary!!! better go rest...... Til blogger is up and running!!
For those not on a break.... do take care and not overwork...... drop me a call/msg if you need to tune into a lighter side of life....
Just so that you all know that i'm alive.. lol.........
This week has been nothing but relaxing.... meet up with all that are close to my heart... a renewal of mind, heart and soul.............
Nothing like a breath of fresh air........ of not thinking abt work..........
I realised that indeed we shall not live in vain....... I refused to live in the past... or even to think abt the injustices, hurts and pains....... cos I've forgiven, forgotten and I live afresh............
I had a great time this week....... facial, pinic, movie, blading, beach bumming, cocktails, wine appreciation, shopping, high teas, girl talk, guy talk, babysitting the love of my life.........
& guess wat.... tomorrow morning i'm headed for a jog at the cemetary!!! better go rest...... Til blogger is up and running!!
For those not on a break.... do take care and not overwork...... drop me a call/msg if you need to tune into a lighter side of life....
~* Saturday, June 02, 2007 *~
It's finally here.......... My long long awaited Break!!!
Today as I left my office... I felt a smile on my face...
A jump in my steps...... wind in my hair.......
But this weeks ahead has alot of plans for me....
First... I've gotta face those skeletons in my closet...
I tremble with fear.... things that i've took so much
strength to get over, move on, get rid, buried now
resurfaced...... I have no idea wat to expect.. and
I dun feel ready at all..... but I know it'll all somehow
turn out well i suppose so I put myself thru it..
Kicking, struggling, dragging my two feet........
I wonder if I can really succeed in making it effective..
If i can get thru it as it is really suppose to be....
Perhaps I do really need this...
All that has happened these past months...
Have left my with a sour taste in my mouth...
I'm jaded with it ALL........ I apolygise for my
Practicality, for giving my "know it all" take on life..
For protraying life so blatantly that it screams hell..
I've overcome it, no doubt.....
Along with experiences that sink deep into my soul..
I need to unlearn wat's learnt......
To press a reset button so that once again I can
believe, live, gain clarity, simplicity, purity of
Love, Friendships, Kinship.... in its truest form......
Cos time has washed away the wounds, scars, memories...
Leaving me hardening my thots, feelings, passion...
I still wanna embrace life, to live it as it's meant to be..
I wanna come clean..... to refresh and rejuvenate....
& I pray that this break really helps me.........
Today as I left my office... I felt a smile on my face...
A jump in my steps...... wind in my hair.......
But this weeks ahead has alot of plans for me....
First... I've gotta face those skeletons in my closet...
I tremble with fear.... things that i've took so much
strength to get over, move on, get rid, buried now
resurfaced...... I have no idea wat to expect.. and
I dun feel ready at all..... but I know it'll all somehow
turn out well i suppose so I put myself thru it..
Kicking, struggling, dragging my two feet........
I wonder if I can really succeed in making it effective..
If i can get thru it as it is really suppose to be....
Perhaps I do really need this...
All that has happened these past months...
Have left my with a sour taste in my mouth...
I'm jaded with it ALL........ I apolygise for my
Practicality, for giving my "know it all" take on life..
For protraying life so blatantly that it screams hell..
I've overcome it, no doubt.....
Along with experiences that sink deep into my soul..
I need to unlearn wat's learnt......
To press a reset button so that once again I can
believe, live, gain clarity, simplicity, purity of
Love, Friendships, Kinship.... in its truest form......
Cos time has washed away the wounds, scars, memories...
Leaving me hardening my thots, feelings, passion...
I still wanna embrace life, to live it as it's meant to be..
I wanna come clean..... to refresh and rejuvenate....
& I pray that this break really helps me.........
