Similar sentiments..... got his from PostSecrets : http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

Those were the days...

 

When your words carried no weight..
When I didn't give a damn about your presence...

When you don't even pop into my head...
When I don't hav you on my speed dial...

When I didn't have to plan my life ard you...
and future holds no aspect of another whatsoever...

When I was a cheerful carefree individual.....
& Exuberance, my middle name......

Those were the days............

 

I Had A Bad Day.............. A new Life........ at a new Blog site........ i just need to start Anew.....

Fly me to the Moon....

 

Best Team Ever!

 

Some pics from my most recent job... we all work hard and laughed hard on this one... a great team.. they just makes audit worth working for... I'm beginning to like my job... how abt ya?

 

Our A1 pics.. finally graduating to A2s....

 

Our team lunch at this thai place... the food is so -so but the price is right and great ambience.. :D

 

huh? my fav senior i guess.. Victor.. he is sooo funny and entertaining.. with jokes and magic tricks... Pics.. stories... sssh.. don't tell him if not his ego gets bigger.. haha

 

All hard at work in the meeting room...actually they're just pretending to work.. look at all their sheepish look on their faces! well, it's just after our lunch.. so can relax for a while...

 

Time for tea break!

 

My lappy and my desk full of work papers... at my cosy corner...

Love, Hope and Peace...

 

Confiding in another person..
offered another point of view.. opnions and advice...
Some it sinks deep when we take time to think it thru..
At times we hang on stubbornly to our own thoughts.
Yet there are moments when it just slices you apart
and make its mark.

I bought your story..
one which wasn't my own...
However, at the same time you bought mine..
Again we're on opposite sides.......
I wish not to be borned down by the circumstances...
To flee away but it ain't me anymore...

I turn my back once b4
only to look at wat i've once missed...
to always listen to a voice that i thot was my own.........
Deception or illusion...
My truth became blurred once again
when you sort out ur own confusion.....

For once i believed and swayed by your way..
only to be slayed down to my dismay...

Now, i can only hope and pray..
for I no longer know the right way...
I close my eyes and pray..
that may God show the way....

For Love, Hope and Peace...
is that too much?
It is Everything...

Quiting the Club

 

I'm not talking abt club sandwich or joining some country club or enthusaists club..

Clubbing... i've decided to quit clubbing... as a form of leisure activity or for my regular friday nights......... it has seem to have lost its purpose and became such a boring.. shallow.. shady place.... meaningless.. wat used to be fun and a social now turn out to be something that i don't seem to want anymore.......

It might be cos of work, for someone, or the pple there, or things i've seen, or wat i've experience... watever it is... I'm off... and i can think of so many good points to make up for it..

• More sleep and rest
• Time to call so and so...
• More time to meet up with other friends
• Time to finish out on work so that i have more time during the day to do other things..
• To quite those good for nothing vices
• To watch TV
• To start on reading my books...
• To do other more meaningful things......................
  
  Maybe only places where i go chilll or hang out for drinks would seem like a better choice...........
  
  The decision has been made... I'm off clubbing.. no more zouky or watever that goes along with it......

When work's a bitch...

 

Yep you heard that right.. work has been a bitch.. taking up my weekdays and some parts of my weekends... at least my team is great... besides my senior who does magic tricks and crack jokes to humor us... my TIC is super chio and always buys us snacks from Old Chang Kee...

A colleague whom i look to now as a friend.. a person I thot I wouldn't get along well initially turn out to be someone i know as genuine... cute though at times blur... but someone i would call as a friend... a good person i can complain to at work.. to compare notes.. to ask for help.. to just chat with....

With a A1 under me.. i thot it would be a breeze but seems like i'm not too good at coaching.. and patience is put to test.. wah kau.... at times like this you wish someone esle could do it.. and you can relax one corner and just hand down the work.. haiz....

Then today the manager came down to review, then qns me this and that but i guess i did a pretty good job answering him.. though documentation wise i need to add more stuff... but dunno why pple are so scare of managers.. to me, it's just another job and they're ultimately pple.. whether they're above or under you.. If they ask qns, just reply.. if you happen to make mistakes.. just correct it.. if there is an issues, just bring it up... wat's the big deal?

Are pple at my level suppose to hide in one corner? I don't think so... I mean if they decide to shout or make sarcastic remarks like LLH... I'll just lose my respect for them and pple like that won't go far.. so it's their loss really...

Work work work... cause me to miss out an important call today.......my friends' "third party" is sleep.. mine is work.. it's my turn to suffer!...

Well, I miss all of you... hope we can meet up soon yeah! Sorry that i've been MIA.. no choice...

Bye Bye.. My friends....

 

Before you know it.. then weekend has gone by.. despite the moments of blues.. it's a weekend of many events... and of ups and downs...

Meeting up this old family friend Gary... who used to come to our house to play.. he's my bro sec sch classmate.. and now.. all married and pursuing his degree in Theology.. he used to be a project manager with his masters & degree in finance.. yet now he has changed to much and gone on to becoming a pastor.. God has really changed his life inside out... he is still as brotherly.. and it's just nice to have an old friend come by to visit.... too bad he only stay a few days and headed back to Sydney...

Val has left for Perth tonigh.. gone to Murdoch University to study her Mass Comm... I really hope she goes there and just study well, learn lots and come back a better person in each and everyway.. not that she isn't one already..

It's just such a opportunity to go overseas to make it out on one's own.. to discover and explore.. and with Pastor Benny Ho's FCC Church there.. i'm sure she'll draw closer to God.. I pray that God holds her close in His hands.. and shape and mould her... and watch over her... Take care and thanks for those wonderful times we had spent over supper... over talking nonsense.. over listening to me "bitch" abt my life... I'm going to miss ya!! But don't forget to "behave" arh!!

Tonight is world cup but i ain't staying up to watch.. completel drained of my energy.. not too sure if i'm going to do anymore work either.... did most of it last night already... going to hit the sack and have maybe have some sweet dreams.. after drinking my "dream" tea... nite nite...

 

Last but not least... Sending Val off at the airport... Going to miss this bubbly sista... but I wish her all the best! Take care gal and do write back... will visit ya soon!! :D

 

Then having farewell dinner for Gary and Frances.. Gary's an old family friend.. A taiwanese australian... graduating in Theology soon.. pastoring a church in Sydney..

 

Our PGL gathering cos Zhenjun is leaving for STB... and for... pls look on...

 

Our Birthday Gal, Desiree... Surprise surprise... down with flu but she still made it down... phew!

 

Beers samplers at Brewerkz.. I've had enough beer goggles the day b4... didn't had any.. but thot it's a good thing to try the next time i'm there.. Love the strawberry beer there though...

 

Meeting Jo & Brandon weeks 2 weeks ago.. To me, they've been an inspiration of love when Jo moved to S'pore to be with Brandon.. the wonders of Love....

Weekend Blues

 

Here I am sitting in my living room... finally managed to do most of my documentation.. wondering if it's just me.. how come i take so long to finish...

Watching the World Cup.. seems like a really exciting match but then my eyes are half asleep.. near half time but no scores yet... I'm for Germany! But utimately i'm supporting Italy... i'm been only watching out for the scores and all.. as i'm already on job this week, hence i can't tune into any of the matches...

I'm tired.. it seems like there is one activity after another.. i can barely breathe.. but yet at the same time they all seems as important... so can't really turn down any in my opnion..

i've already tried to shorten my time spend on each so that i have time to do wat i need to do, to rest.. to have a weekend... as i've only been reaching home abt 10pm every night... for last week...

Tired and stressed out.. yet I've been missing someone.. yet he is away.. far far away....

i better go catch some rest and maybe check the score in the morning...

Just There....

 

Been recovering but i'm still down lately...

Cos it just seems like everything coming at me all at the same time.. at times like this i wonder if i'm just thinking things up in my heart or mind...

Yet i shun the advice of my friends when it hits me right in the heart/mind/soul.. cos it just takes away whoever i thot i am.. challenging me fundamentally.. radically... I often turn defensive, maybe cos of my pride.. my fears... and knowing that i'm wrong... or am too coward to show signs of doubts...

I'm sorry if i ever not take ur advice.. .. rejected it at face value.. cos it's just freaky to be read like an open book... to be so transparent and vulnerable.. I seem to have this "runaway syndrome".. that i'm trying to avoid and change... and this "vulnerability", is it a blessing or a curse?

I somehow need time to think.. to turn it to my own... to hear it in my own thots and in my own words and make it my own voice....... but i thank God that you have found your own...

I just don't feel like i'm myself.. cos i don't think i know myself.... I don't think i know wat i really want.. i don't even know wat i'm searching for....

Thanks for being there... for listening... for offering out of this world/eccentric opnions/suggestions/resolutions/questions.... to me at least.. for just being you.... For offering that shoulder to cry on when i really needed it.. it's not much but it's good enough... cos some times you just need to tell that one person/or two combined... abt things that you cry abt.. and you feel better after that.. sure beats telling it 10 times to 10 different people..

Maybe i'm broken.. and need some "fixing:.. some time.. something..... but wat?! like one of those quer things we see all the time.. we always wonder.. why?.......

*sorry for my bad english, updated it.. tsk tsk...

More Pics.. of paradise.......

 

Hey pple, I've uploaded more pics of sunny redang paradise.. click on the link below.. it's so beautiful.. of cos my companions made the whole experience even better... enjoy!!

Healing

 

A near blogicide was saved... by the grace of God....
It's been a hard week... but i've found my peace...
Which none other can provide except my God...
A inner healing has began...... Thank God!