Simple Thoughts.... Complex Thinking..... In Search For An Answer
~* Monday, January 29, 2007 *~
This week has taught me to not lean on my own understanding...
To know that there are things beyond my control...
Just take things in my stride...
To know that at times i'm not superwoman and that I can
Break down and cry... over work...
To accept my mistakes and learn from them..
To understand the importance of communication..
These are common sense but yet at times..
I need to be reminded of wat's real and wat's not...
& last but not least... I'm glad to have you here....
With me.....
To know that there are things beyond my control...
Just take things in my stride...
To know that at times i'm not superwoman and that I can
Break down and cry... over work...
To accept my mistakes and learn from them..
To understand the importance of communication..
These are common sense but yet at times..
I need to be reminded of wat's real and wat's not...
& last but not least... I'm glad to have you here....
With me.....
~* Saturday, January 27, 2007 *~
Love it!!! Reminds me of Baker's Innz coffee which is my favourite coffee that i haven't had in a long long time... This is courtesy of bestest Benest!! :D
Work is still at the top of my To do List... It's never ending and the list never fails to grow longer and longer...
Another week has passed and I'm still clearing my backlog cos of some exceptions that I've noted... the client is unhappy & my words got twisted... As I've said to them, "things are so far so good, as things seem to be in place during that point in time".. but cicumstances change when I've exceptions that needed to be iron out.. and i highlighted it to some superior authority. Well... all that happens is that it just falls back into my lap... and somehow it seems to be my problem to clear...
But with my lack of experience, expertise and power to make the decisions.... i'm helpless and left to deal with client on my own... now the client is upset... the person/pple above me is unpleased.. i've over worked and burnt out.. my quality of work has dropped to < zero.........
Yet i've still another 2 piles of ShXt.. to follow up.. to clear..... to work on........
I'm very tempted.......... to open that template... to change the name........
To go and buy My nicely pressed White enevelop.................. b'cos for once... for a day...... I wish to be UNREACHABLE....... to evaporate from the face of this earth......
Cos at this point.. I've no solution.. but to just continuing doing.. to just clear wat the left to do.... which isn't exactly wat i wanna do now..... BUT...
I will finish wat i'm assigned to.. mistakes made... I guess I'll just have to learn... but the unfairness of it all, for asking 1 person to do a 2 person one week job.. for expecting me to finish in one day is really kinda ridiculous.. i took it.. i tried my best... I failed.... next time... i'll have to hold my ground.......to pluck up my courage and say.... "NO"... cos I can't do it.. no matter how much i try.......
I'm tired..... i've used up every single shred of energy... i need my life back... these two weeks nearly took my joy for living... and yet i'm still powerless to do anything abt it...
However, i'm not going to let this take me down.. I've going to just let this blow over... to go to work on Monday morning.. with a BIG HUGE SMILE on my Face... b'cos....... I know I did wat I can...
Another week has passed and I'm still clearing my backlog cos of some exceptions that I've noted... the client is unhappy & my words got twisted... As I've said to them, "things are so far so good, as things seem to be in place during that point in time".. but cicumstances change when I've exceptions that needed to be iron out.. and i highlighted it to some superior authority. Well... all that happens is that it just falls back into my lap... and somehow it seems to be my problem to clear...
But with my lack of experience, expertise and power to make the decisions.... i'm helpless and left to deal with client on my own... now the client is upset... the person/pple above me is unpleased.. i've over worked and burnt out.. my quality of work has dropped to < zero.........
Yet i've still another 2 piles of ShXt.. to follow up.. to clear..... to work on........
I'm very tempted.......... to open that template... to change the name........
To go and buy My nicely pressed White enevelop.................. b'cos for once... for a day...... I wish to be UNREACHABLE....... to evaporate from the face of this earth......
Cos at this point.. I've no solution.. but to just continuing doing.. to just clear wat the left to do.... which isn't exactly wat i wanna do now..... BUT...
I will finish wat i'm assigned to.. mistakes made... I guess I'll just have to learn... but the unfairness of it all, for asking 1 person to do a 2 person one week job.. for expecting me to finish in one day is really kinda ridiculous.. i took it.. i tried my best... I failed.... next time... i'll have to hold my ground.......to pluck up my courage and say.... "NO"... cos I can't do it.. no matter how much i try.......
I'm tired..... i've used up every single shred of energy... i need my life back... these two weeks nearly took my joy for living... and yet i'm still powerless to do anything abt it...
However, i'm not going to let this take me down.. I've going to just let this blow over... to go to work on Monday morning.. with a BIG HUGE SMILE on my Face... b'cos....... I know I did wat I can...
~* Sunday, January 14, 2007 *~
Disappointment...
Yet i still wish you the best...
Just wished I was given the basic form of courtesy, respect and of cos a little thot for my feelings...
If only those words were yours.... BUT I had to heard it from someone esle....
I thot we will always be friends.... however NOW I know where i stand....
Yet i still wish you the best...
Just wished I was given the basic form of courtesy, respect and of cos a little thot for my feelings...
If only those words were yours.... BUT I had to heard it from someone esle....
I thot we will always be friends.... however NOW I know where i stand....
~* Tuesday, January 09, 2007 *~
We are all but imperfect...
The strive for excellence..
The endless loads of work..
of plights BIG and small..
Emotions uncontrollable..
UPs and downs...
Of past, present and future...
Now.. past twelve...
Sitting alone in my living room..
the hours past by so quickly
Yearning to complete
what I intended to do..
Fighting back the motivation
of the intense presence of...
my helplessness to feel the sense...
of the surreality of trying to
to reach perfection....
The strive for excellence..
The endless loads of work..
of plights BIG and small..
Emotions uncontrollable..
UPs and downs...
Of past, present and future...
Now.. past twelve...
Sitting alone in my living room..
the hours past by so quickly
Yearning to complete
what I intended to do..
Fighting back the motivation
of the intense presence of...
my helplessness to feel the sense...
of the surreality of trying to
to reach perfection....
~* Thursday, January 04, 2007 *~
for me... to be back on my super shitty hole again... and i really really dislike that person.. just a mere sight of him send me back to the times when he told me off without any reason.. with much sarcasiam... I really hope time would fly by and I'll move on to do other stuff.... this time I'm going to manage my expectations... and of cos his! ;)
Sometimes pple say... it's not the job you're doing.. it's the pple you're working for that makes a difference... & I couldn't agree more....
Tomorrow need to go back office like damn early to follow-up on this job... or can i procrastinate til the end of the week?! But no... i'm going to be a good responsible girl and go back and just clear it.. so that for once it'll be out of my head and my to do list... and no longer outstanding!!
Sometimes pple say... it's not the job you're doing.. it's the pple you're working for that makes a difference... & I couldn't agree more....
Tomorrow need to go back office like damn early to follow-up on this job... or can i procrastinate til the end of the week?! But no... i'm going to be a good responsible girl and go back and just clear it.. so that for once it'll be out of my head and my to do list... and no longer outstanding!!
~* Tuesday, January 02, 2007 *~
#1 - learn mouth to mouth resusitation
#2 - decline plastic bags whereever/whenever possible
#3 - read a story with a child
#4 - fit at least one energy-saving light bulb in my house
#5 - smile and smile back
#6 - take public transport when you can
#7 - plant something
#8 - have a bath with someone you love.. (does wolfy count?!)
#9 - learn the tradition owners of your area
#10 - turn your thermostat down 1 degree
#11 - get fitter, feel better
#12 - turn off appliances at the mains
#13 - recycle your mobile phones
#14 - spend time with someone from a different generation
#15 - register online as an organ donor
#16 - give your change to charity
#17 - try watching less tv
#18 - learn to be friendly in another language
#19 - learn one good joke
#20 - turn off unneccessary lights
#21 - find out how your money is invested
#22 - use your will to good effect
#23 - have more meals together... with family
#24 - dispose of cigarettes appropriately
#25 - recycle your clothes
#26 - give blood
#27 - pay more when you shop at op-shops
#28 - seize the moment... "be the change you want to see in the world"; mahatma ghandi
#29 - recycle your computer
#30 - bake something for a friend
#31 - turn off the tap while brushing your teeth
#32 - be resourceful
#33 - recycle your books
#34 - offer to mow your neighbour's lawn
#35 - write to someone who inspired you
#36 - take time to listen
#37 - don't overfill your kettle
#38 - let at least one car in on every journey
#39 - shop locally
#40 - join something
#41 - hug someone
#42 - recycle your specs
#43 - buy fairly traded products
#44 - participate in clean up Singapore Day! (watever that is!!)
#45 - give your phone number to at least 5 ppls in your street (Which include acqaintences, neighbours, friend's friends, church members & not the rest of the world!)
#46 - use both sides of every sheet of paper
#47 - buy a copy of this book for a friend (I need to get one for myself first!!)
#48 - send the book ppls an action (huh?!)
#49 - learn more, do more
#50 - do something for nothing...
Thanks Pearle for your providing some inspiration!!
#2 - decline plastic bags whereever/whenever possible
#3 - read a story with a child
#4 - fit at least one energy-saving light bulb in my house
#5 - smile and smile back
#6 - take public transport when you can
#7 - plant something
#8 - have a bath with someone you love.. (does wolfy count?!)
#9 - learn the tradition owners of your area
#10 - turn your thermostat down 1 degree
#11 - get fitter, feel better
#12 - turn off appliances at the mains
#13 - recycle your mobile phones
#14 - spend time with someone from a different generation
#15 - register online as an organ donor
#16 - give your change to charity
#17 - try watching less tv
#18 - learn to be friendly in another language
#19 - learn one good joke
#20 - turn off unneccessary lights
#21 - find out how your money is invested
#22 - use your will to good effect
#23 - have more meals together... with family
#24 - dispose of cigarettes appropriately
#25 - recycle your clothes
#26 - give blood
#27 - pay more when you shop at op-shops
#28 - seize the moment... "be the change you want to see in the world"; mahatma ghandi
#29 - recycle your computer
#30 - bake something for a friend
#31 - turn off the tap while brushing your teeth
#32 - be resourceful
#33 - recycle your books
#34 - offer to mow your neighbour's lawn
#35 - write to someone who inspired you
#36 - take time to listen
#37 - don't overfill your kettle
#38 - let at least one car in on every journey
#39 - shop locally
#40 - join something
#41 - hug someone
#42 - recycle your specs
#43 - buy fairly traded products
#44 - participate in clean up Singapore Day! (watever that is!!)
#45 - give your phone number to at least 5 ppls in your street (Which include acqaintences, neighbours, friend's friends, church members & not the rest of the world!)
#46 - use both sides of every sheet of paper
#47 - buy a copy of this book for a friend (I need to get one for myself first!!)
#48 - send the book ppls an action (huh?!)
#49 - learn more, do more
#50 - do something for nothing...
Thanks Pearle for your providing some inspiration!!
