Simple Thoughts.... Complex Thinking..... In Search For An Answer
~* Saturday, February 26, 2011 *~
Antisocial personality disorder is a psychiatric condition that causes an ongoing pattern of manipulating others and violating their rights. People with this disorder do not follow society’s norms and often break the law. It is characteristic for people with this diagnosis to be entirely careless about other people's feelings and pain, and to show a pervasive pattern of no remorse together with irresponsible decisions.
Sooo it's a real disease.. I thot it's just a stereotype.. I learn something new everyday.
Dear Blog,
Sorry to abandon you.. I think i've lost the passion to blog... maybe cos I'm less online nowadays..
only surfing via my addictive iphone, it a hard habit to kick!!
Can't believe it's already 2011... mine oh mine.. how far have a come.. a whirl wind of changes has since happened...it's been more than a year since the horrid days of relationship trauma.. now it's no where near.. only happy happy days!
Life has been quite a bliss... new role @ work... a new found love with my beloved.. Living in our new home.. nothing can be more sweet.. except the fact that we're planning our dream holiday to Japan.. & my best friend Joe's coming down for a visit...
I've since adapted my life to a new city not looking back to a very different, more balance life across the borders from where I call home.. still... I'm still trying to live out the twenties but no more alcoholic days of drinking.. partying which I sorely miss...to indulge yet in a bit of the vices while we're still in our youth... those days seem to be long gone... Now life is filled with responsibilities, with a healthy lifestyle where every calorie count adds to your frame where metabolism seem to be no-more no-more...
This is possibly the time of in-between where I severely struggle with the fact of no longer growing up but fears of growing old.. where you try potions after potions to fight the wrinkles.. to try to dress age appropriate... where you visit a club & realise that everyone is sooo young..I would like to turn back the clock to be where I am at now.. comfortable in my own skin, with my achievements but still have the energy to get out there! I dun think one can ever be ready of the next decade jump whatever their age.. from teens to twenties, from twenties to thirties, from thirties to forties etc...
My plan however this year is no new year resolutions but to just live life to the fullest in whatever way I can... BIG & small...& hope you do too...
As I am approach my next birthday... I wish for countless days and nights filled with the people I love.. and time spend... not trying to be someone I'm trying to be.. but just be me.....
Sorry to abandon you.. I think i've lost the passion to blog... maybe cos I'm less online nowadays..
only surfing via my addictive iphone, it a hard habit to kick!!
Can't believe it's already 2011... mine oh mine.. how far have a come.. a whirl wind of changes has since happened...it's been more than a year since the horrid days of relationship trauma.. now it's no where near.. only happy happy days!
Life has been quite a bliss... new role @ work... a new found love with my beloved.. Living in our new home.. nothing can be more sweet.. except the fact that we're planning our dream holiday to Japan.. & my best friend Joe's coming down for a visit...
I've since adapted my life to a new city not looking back to a very different, more balance life across the borders from where I call home.. still... I'm still trying to live out the twenties but no more alcoholic days of drinking.. partying which I sorely miss...to indulge yet in a bit of the vices while we're still in our youth... those days seem to be long gone... Now life is filled with responsibilities, with a healthy lifestyle where every calorie count adds to your frame where metabolism seem to be no-more no-more...
This is possibly the time of in-between where I severely struggle with the fact of no longer growing up but fears of growing old.. where you try potions after potions to fight the wrinkles.. to try to dress age appropriate... where you visit a club & realise that everyone is sooo young..I would like to turn back the clock to be where I am at now.. comfortable in my own skin, with my achievements but still have the energy to get out there! I dun think one can ever be ready of the next decade jump whatever their age.. from teens to twenties, from twenties to thirties, from thirties to forties etc...
My plan however this year is no new year resolutions but to just live life to the fullest in whatever way I can... BIG & small...& hope you do too...
As I am approach my next birthday... I wish for countless days and nights filled with the people I love.. and time spend... not trying to be someone I'm trying to be.. but just be me.....
~* Saturday, March 13, 2010 *~
Don't worry about people in your past
there is a reason they didn't make it to your future...
You reap what you sow.. or something I like to call karma...
I don't have to do anything.. you just need to do it to yourself...
LIfe is a joke.. and you're the joke! lol....
~* Thursday, December 24, 2009 *~
You promised you would call when you touch down..
that you'll be spending xmas with me...
that we''ll put in effort to make things better..
that you support me in all I do...
that you'll be there when I need ya....
that you wipe away my tears..
It's wet and cold this xmas day..
I finally know my place...
I'm all alone once again....
that you'll be spending xmas with me...
that we''ll put in effort to make things better..
that you support me in all I do...
that you'll be there when I need ya....
that you wipe away my tears..
It's wet and cold this xmas day..
I finally know my place...
I'm all alone once again....
~* Thursday, February 05, 2009 *~
Sitting in the still of the night.. I wonder what life is all about.. what I have achieved so far, it's like blurry array...
Esp when the doom and gloom has gotten to everyone...
I still work hard keeping to average hours 9 to 9.. thankful that I'm not having it so bad...
I wish I can be nice and objective... but at work at times you have to remain impartial.. and cold very much like the concrete jungle...
I had learnt many tough lessons this year of mgt pple and expectations... catch up in the middle of it all with my designation...
I wish for a break I can't afford.. to be clear in my thots and at peace with my world...
It's now turned inside out.. one I can no longer place subject on spinning and twining out of control......
I hope for the best and with my last run of youth I paced myself to strive for something to keep..
To grow into a true blue air of something somewhat and some say.. indescribable realm
Of excellence...
I seated now on my bed... I wonder if you're thinking the same thots to... is yours as complex too?
Esp when the doom and gloom has gotten to everyone...
I still work hard keeping to average hours 9 to 9.. thankful that I'm not having it so bad...
I wish I can be nice and objective... but at work at times you have to remain impartial.. and cold very much like the concrete jungle...
I had learnt many tough lessons this year of mgt pple and expectations... catch up in the middle of it all with my designation...
I wish for a break I can't afford.. to be clear in my thots and at peace with my world...
It's now turned inside out.. one I can no longer place subject on spinning and twining out of control......
I hope for the best and with my last run of youth I paced myself to strive for something to keep..
To grow into a true blue air of something somewhat and some say.. indescribable realm
Of excellence...
I seated now on my bed... I wonder if you're thinking the same thots to... is yours as complex too?
~* Friday, January 02, 2009 *~
I went to back track to new year resolutions for 2008...... and realised I didn't really made anything concrete!! I wouldn't want 2009 to be the same... here goes!!
Resolutions for 2009 and good advice!
1) Don't get caught up in someones's else's game-playing
2) Accept that I can't make everyone like me!
3) In the long run, I probably won't regret spending a large chuck of savings on a fantastic overseas trip. As long as I can afford to survive when I get back.. do it!
4) Self-pity won't help me.. so stop whining!
5) You can't argue with a person who's not thinking logically. Don't frustrate myself trying.. so take a deep breadth, count to three, then walk away...
6) Nothing is meant to be. It just is. Accept that sometimes you can't influence the way things turn out, and sometimes you can't.
7) Don't indulge in gossiping, it can be hurtful and dangerous..
8) Complaining is a waste of my time.. unless followed up by solution and then action
9) Ignore pple who are mean.. they are usually sad pple inside..
10) Think b4 you shout, send a vicious email, slam the door/phone. Always remember that a split second of consideration save you years of regret.
11) Shit happens, deal with it.
12) My bf => financial advisor (WIP), computer guy(check), mechanic(check), electrician(check) and plumber(check)... I'll be very nice to him...
13) Finish my CPA.. 2 more to go!
14) Do one positive thing for your health.. start exercising!
15) People don't think as often about me as often as I think they do, so stop obsessing about it!
16) Don't expect life to be miralously change.. without any effort...
17) Bring a emergency toothbrush around...and try to brush more often after lunch.. etc...
18) Don't have any credit card debt! (haha.. I never do)
19) Get a really good bag item and shoes.. great haircut(check)... cos never undestimate the importance...
20) Make decisions motivated by positivity, curosity, desire for stimulation.
21) Do whatever I dread most on monday morning.. then I can forget about it once done.
22) Make a valuable contribution to the welfare of the world...
23) Recognise that famous, rich, beautiful people are not neccessarily happy than me!
24) Learn about perspective, empathy, patience.. 3 of the most valuable life skills no one can teach me..
25) Have nice cleanly pluck eyebrows..
26) Sometimes you need to bite the bullet and say sorry
27) Have good manners, greet people by name..
28) Try to be more spontanous.. try everything once!
29) Help others, you never know when you might be the person who needs help in return.
30) Know the importance of family and close friend.. even though I'm abroad.. always make effort to be in touch!
That's a wrap for the new year!! :D
Resolutions for 2009 and good advice!
1) Don't get caught up in someones's else's game-playing
2) Accept that I can't make everyone like me!
3) In the long run, I probably won't regret spending a large chuck of savings on a fantastic overseas trip. As long as I can afford to survive when I get back.. do it!
4) Self-pity won't help me.. so stop whining!
5) You can't argue with a person who's not thinking logically. Don't frustrate myself trying.. so take a deep breadth, count to three, then walk away...
6) Nothing is meant to be. It just is. Accept that sometimes you can't influence the way things turn out, and sometimes you can't.
7) Don't indulge in gossiping, it can be hurtful and dangerous..
8) Complaining is a waste of my time.. unless followed up by solution and then action
9) Ignore pple who are mean.. they are usually sad pple inside..
10) Think b4 you shout, send a vicious email, slam the door/phone. Always remember that a split second of consideration save you years of regret.
11) Shit happens, deal with it.
12) My bf => financial advisor (WIP), computer guy(check), mechanic(check), electrician(check) and plumber(check)... I'll be very nice to him...
13) Finish my CPA.. 2 more to go!
14) Do one positive thing for your health.. start exercising!
15) People don't think as often about me as often as I think they do, so stop obsessing about it!
16) Don't expect life to be miralously change.. without any effort...
17) Bring a emergency toothbrush around...and try to brush more often after lunch.. etc...
18) Don't have any credit card debt! (haha.. I never do)
19) Get a really good bag item and shoes.. great haircut(check)... cos never undestimate the importance...
20) Make decisions motivated by positivity, curosity, desire for stimulation.
21) Do whatever I dread most on monday morning.. then I can forget about it once done.
22) Make a valuable contribution to the welfare of the world...
23) Recognise that famous, rich, beautiful people are not neccessarily happy than me!
24) Learn about perspective, empathy, patience.. 3 of the most valuable life skills no one can teach me..
25) Have nice cleanly pluck eyebrows..
26) Sometimes you need to bite the bullet and say sorry
27) Have good manners, greet people by name..
28) Try to be more spontanous.. try everything once!
29) Help others, you never know when you might be the person who needs help in return.
30) Know the importance of family and close friend.. even though I'm abroad.. always make effort to be in touch!
That's a wrap for the new year!! :D
~* Friday, December 19, 2008 *~
I'm happy to be back....... this time is mainly family oriented.....
I feel bad for not being around at home as often as I should.. or at all.. since I started living abroad....
I just wanna be there for my family to make up for lost times........ I'm sorry if I wasn't in touch or unable to meet up with close pals as much as I would like....... my time is limited.......
and my objective is just one big important promise...... to make my family feel love and warmth on this x'mas time festive time..........
It's wonderful to be surrounded by my friend and family......... to have the fresh familiar feeling of home that I grew up in.......... to be taken care from head to toe..... to be back on holiday without a care in the world...............
If only life was sooo simple.......
But nah...... my life ain't no bed of roses in Melbourne........ and it's different type of stress as here... I do enjoy myself there and now is a place I call home..... for now and time to come........ Feels like I can never bring myself to come back here..... with a different culture and life... something now so foreign and so unwelcoming....
I have tried to keep in touch with some old pals..... but some a little far from reach........ well I guess I tried and I'm sad you didn't reply...... Life goes on and time will not wait anymore....
I hope you are happy, gee and glad..... wherever you are and spending a wonderful xmas in your cosy home....
Wish all a merry x'mas and happy new year!! :D
I feel bad for not being around at home as often as I should.. or at all.. since I started living abroad....
I just wanna be there for my family to make up for lost times........ I'm sorry if I wasn't in touch or unable to meet up with close pals as much as I would like....... my time is limited.......
and my objective is just one big important promise...... to make my family feel love and warmth on this x'mas time festive time..........
It's wonderful to be surrounded by my friend and family......... to have the fresh familiar feeling of home that I grew up in.......... to be taken care from head to toe..... to be back on holiday without a care in the world...............
If only life was sooo simple.......
But nah...... my life ain't no bed of roses in Melbourne........ and it's different type of stress as here... I do enjoy myself there and now is a place I call home..... for now and time to come........ Feels like I can never bring myself to come back here..... with a different culture and life... something now so foreign and so unwelcoming....
I have tried to keep in touch with some old pals..... but some a little far from reach........ well I guess I tried and I'm sad you didn't reply...... Life goes on and time will not wait anymore....
I hope you are happy, gee and glad..... wherever you are and spending a wonderful xmas in your cosy home....
Wish all a merry x'mas and happy new year!! :D
~* Thursday, September 18, 2008 *~
The storm has blown over.... Things are talked over and life goes on..
I'm very much better....
Cos at least I'm not roaming the streets in search of a new home...
The old one is still cosy and I'm hanging on......
I guess it's time for things to take a better turn....
I appreciate all of those even though miles away.....
Dropped me a little note...
Kept me company through those long long nights....
I sure miss you........
I'm good as gold and will be back home soon.... for the Dec break... see you soon!
I'm very much better....
Cos at least I'm not roaming the streets in search of a new home...
The old one is still cosy and I'm hanging on......
I guess it's time for things to take a better turn....
I appreciate all of those even though miles away.....
Dropped me a little note...
Kept me company through those long long nights....
I sure miss you........
I'm good as gold and will be back home soon.... for the Dec break... see you soon!
~* Sunday, September 07, 2008 *~
I had a nightmare last night... I woke up in tears..... shaking all over.....
I was running and running all night........ from a wet, dark, rotting place....
All alone and terrified.......... I couldn't get out...... and when I called out, no one answered...
I went back to sleep again...... this time..... the same thing repeat......
I was trying to escape... out of a certain place... the whole night I was running.......
I wish right here right now.. I could turn things around that they would be fine somehow...
I wish we could take back our words said..... and every bad thing would go away...
But I know it is only in a moment... that things I would be back running again... cos
Somethings are just not meant to be.........
I now have to planned my new life..... a new start... a journey that I would rather not take...
Right now... can't this wait?......
I guess no... as my time is running out.........
I was running and running all night........ from a wet, dark, rotting place....
All alone and terrified.......... I couldn't get out...... and when I called out, no one answered...
I went back to sleep again...... this time..... the same thing repeat......
I was trying to escape... out of a certain place... the whole night I was running.......
I wish right here right now.. I could turn things around that they would be fine somehow...
I wish we could take back our words said..... and every bad thing would go away...
But I know it is only in a moment... that things I would be back running again... cos
Somethings are just not meant to be.........
I now have to planned my new life..... a new start... a journey that I would rather not take...
Right now... can't this wait?......
I guess no... as my time is running out.........
~* Wednesday, September 03, 2008 *~
That's exactly how I'm feeling now... plus misery........ cos things ain't looking rosy anymore......
Wish it would not go this way..... and how things could be so different but they are not the way it's meant to be... cos of the incompatibility...........
I hope that you are well and not as upset and restless like me, with a deep sense of brokenness all swept inside of me...
The silence has been too long.. I might have gotten used to it sweet touch.. as there were too many a chance was given but it's all not taken....
Now when the numbness to a wounded heart has slowly creep in... this would perhaps give way to a better outcome in another way....
Where perhaps the rain would stop.. the sun would shine and the rainbow would fall.......
Wish it would not go this way..... and how things could be so different but they are not the way it's meant to be... cos of the incompatibility...........
I hope that you are well and not as upset and restless like me, with a deep sense of brokenness all swept inside of me...
The silence has been too long.. I might have gotten used to it sweet touch.. as there were too many a chance was given but it's all not taken....
Now when the numbness to a wounded heart has slowly creep in... this would perhaps give way to a better outcome in another way....
Where perhaps the rain would stop.. the sun would shine and the rainbow would fall.......
~* Monday, August 25, 2008 *~
The sun rises and set the
same day after day...
I try and I try ever so hard
just realizing it's all just a dismay...
The more toil I have taken...
the more salt I have to eat...
The softer side I reveal...
The harder side appears
One I have tried not to attain...
A foul smell I start to sense...
infused with my solemn disdain...
Of a face I have not seem before
amidst all this I have to put a front
to keep up with your unpleasant
arrears of sudden emotional portray...
same day after day...
I try and I try ever so hard
just realizing it's all just a dismay...
The more toil I have taken...
the more salt I have to eat...
The softer side I reveal...
The harder side appears
One I have tried not to attain...
A foul smell I start to sense...
infused with my solemn disdain...
Of a face I have not seem before
amidst all this I have to put a front
to keep up with your unpleasant
arrears of sudden emotional portray...
~* Wednesday, May 07, 2008 *~
Stay with me while the sun still shines.....
When the weather is cool and comforting......
Pressures of life just eases by........
My days are short.... and nights long.......
Daydreams of paradise......
I hope that you'll stay....
with me.......
To do and live a dream of home.....
Promises I will make........
Tears I will not shed...
Stay as you listen to the song...
As the cool calm night passes us by....
For tomorrow comes a new day
To love, hope and live......
When the weather is cool and comforting......
Pressures of life just eases by........
My days are short.... and nights long.......
Daydreams of paradise......
I hope that you'll stay....
with me.......
To do and live a dream of home.....
Promises I will make........
Tears I will not shed...
Stay as you listen to the song...
As the cool calm night passes us by....
For tomorrow comes a new day
To love, hope and live......
~* Thursday, March 27, 2008 *~
Just when you thot things were going your way.......... and they turn out that it's not your align expectation but taking you steps back....... it's been one big disappointment.......
One after another....... that it's no use talking or thinking cos somethings are just beyond your control...... and I can only look forward... taking things in my stride......... but anyway......
Who cares?...........
Maybe I shouldn't care anymore as well......... when you do less you won't expect more........
Is it just me? my life........ or just a wrong choice............
I just don't know..... I can only cling on or pick another....... let life unfold my future......
One after another....... that it's no use talking or thinking cos somethings are just beyond your control...... and I can only look forward... taking things in my stride......... but anyway......
Who cares?...........
Maybe I shouldn't care anymore as well......... when you do less you won't expect more........
Is it just me? my life........ or just a wrong choice............
I just don't know..... I can only cling on or pick another....... let life unfold my future......
~* Monday, March 24, 2008 *~
Life seems to be like a maze... you run off from one point to another and eventually getting no where and wondering if i'm just running around in circles... getting no where...
I wake up to this new life... somewhat unknown... thinking of all the possibilities... the Hits.. and Misses....
Lost in the little bends and turns........... I'm just scared of getting lost and not being able to make my way out....
There are those I miss dearly..... and wish I could tell them personally...... but I can't.....
I just wish that I wasn't me and my life would pick up faster than this... and that some lights would shine thru and bring me to the end of the maze......
I wake up to this new life... somewhat unknown... thinking of all the possibilities... the Hits.. and Misses....
Lost in the little bends and turns........... I'm just scared of getting lost and not being able to make my way out....
There are those I miss dearly..... and wish I could tell them personally...... but I can't.....
I just wish that I wasn't me and my life would pick up faster than this... and that some lights would shine thru and bring me to the end of the maze......
~* Saturday, January 26, 2008 *~
The shocking news hit me on friday night as I packed up in office about to make my way home.... A sms came... "Grandpa just passed away, call home when you can"... from a SG HP number...
A silence... I'm all frozen in my seat... could that be my bro? I logged online desperately looking for someone who could confirmed my doubts... my cousin online helped me make a call home... "it's true...." she said....
sitting there alone..... grief sweep all over me... not knowing how is everyone else at home doing... how's ah ma doing?
A couple of phone calls home brought me it back to me where my heart really is now... with my family...
With the funeral in a few days... flight bookings full... only vacancies were those far beyond my purse strings... struggling with my cashflow... in a foreign land... I didn't make it home... to say my last good byes... to be there for my family... to support one another thru this difficult time...
This may be one of the few things I have ever regretted... like how my other grandma who passed away years ago... I didn't make it to her sick bed to wish her good bye... and til now... it's something i would very much like to have done...
Now I could only pray that God keep Grandpa save... and give strength to my family members... for Dad, Mom, Bro, Carol.. and all the uncles and aunties... In Jesus name I pray... Amen!
Sorry I couldn't get home... peace be with you all... love you...
A silence... I'm all frozen in my seat... could that be my bro? I logged online desperately looking for someone who could confirmed my doubts... my cousin online helped me make a call home... "it's true...." she said....
sitting there alone..... grief sweep all over me... not knowing how is everyone else at home doing... how's ah ma doing?
A couple of phone calls home brought me it back to me where my heart really is now... with my family...
With the funeral in a few days... flight bookings full... only vacancies were those far beyond my purse strings... struggling with my cashflow... in a foreign land... I didn't make it home... to say my last good byes... to be there for my family... to support one another thru this difficult time...
This may be one of the few things I have ever regretted... like how my other grandma who passed away years ago... I didn't make it to her sick bed to wish her good bye... and til now... it's something i would very much like to have done...
Now I could only pray that God keep Grandpa save... and give strength to my family members... for Dad, Mom, Bro, Carol.. and all the uncles and aunties... In Jesus name I pray... Amen!
Sorry I couldn't get home... peace be with you all... love you...
~* Friday, January 04, 2008 *~
Cheers to the new year....... and a review of last year......
My post from Last Year:
#2 - decline plastic bags whereever/whenever possible ops.. i need a big reusable shopping bag
#3 - read a story with a child I did that with Xiao Pang!!
#4 - fit at least one energy-saving light bulb in my house Yes I have that at home.. in SG
#5 - smile and smile back All the time!!
#6 - take public transport when you can I have been doing that!
#7 - plant something Not really but I have friends who do?!
#8 - have a bath with someone you love.. (does wolfy count?!) Yes with Wolfy...
#9 - learn the tradition owners of your area hm... not sure
#10 - turn your thermostat down 1 degree yes i always adjust it down when it's cold..
#11 - get fitter, feel better well I did lost some weight!!
#12 - turn off appliances at the mains yes most of the time..
#13 - recycle your mobile phones yep I give them to those who need it like my mom?
#14 - spend time with someone from a different generation Xiao Pang Xiao Pang!
#15 - register online as an organ donor nope... not yet.... :(
#16 - give your change to charity yes all the time
#17 - try watching less tv not a tv addict anyways...
#18 - learn to be friendly in another language hm... dialect can?
#19 - learn one good joke Yes I learn many!!
#20 - turn off unneccessary lights All the time!!
#21 - find out how your money is invested I know but I have no capital!!
#22 - use your will to good effect Don't you do that always..
#23 - have more meals together... with family I had many b4 i left
#24 - dispose of cigarettes appropriately I don't smoke...
#25 - recycle your clothes When it comes back to fashion..
#26 - give blood I can't...
#27 - pay more when you shop at op-shops don't have it...
#28 - seize the moment... "be the change you want to see in the world"; mahatma ghandi I am! I am!
#29 - recycle your computer I trade in my old lappy..
#30 - bake something for a friend I made baked pasta and lasagna
#31 - turn off the tap while brushing your teeth I do that all the time..
#32 - be resourceful ALWAYS!
#33 - recycle your books yes i pass it on...
#34 - offer to mow your neighbour's lawn I don't have a neighbour with a lawn
#35 - write to someone who inspired you Yes to my mentors at work to thank them
#36 - take time to listen like listening slowly
#37 - don't overfill your kettle I never do!
#38 - let at least one car in on every journey I'm a good road user..
#39 - shop locally I love local produce!!
#40 - join something Facebook anyone!!
#41 - hug someone I hug everyone!!
#42 - recycle your specs yep i have one that I use since JC..
#43 - buy fairly traded products wat are those?
#44 - participate in clean up Singapore Day! (watever that is!!) No No.. don't have...
#45 - give your phone number to at least 5 ppls in your street (Which include acqaintences, neighbours, friend's friends, church members & not the rest of the world!) I gave away more numbers that that!
#46 - use both sides of every sheet of paper most of the time..
#47 - buy a copy of this book for a friend (I need to get one for myself first!!) wat book?!
#48 - send the book ppls an action (huh?!) STill Duh?!
#49 - learn more, do more I learn something new everyday
#50 - do something for nothing... I do that now and then...
~* Saturday, December 08, 2007 *~
~* Friday, December 07, 2007 *~
Yes they do indeed............ and of cos nothing can be done without the Lord's blessings........ Amen to that!! All this... alll this.......... has happened cos you all have prayed... thanks for all your prayers....... and by God's grace cos I know I am nothing without him........ nothing......... Thank you God....... It's an affirmation of His plan for my life........... and the new journey begins here.......
Everybody!! I have finally obtained my PR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wieee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hence... after this week it'll be Sayonara to SG.......... Hellooooo Melbourne!! :D
Everybody!! I have finally obtained my PR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wieee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hence... after this week it'll be Sayonara to SG.......... Hellooooo Melbourne!! :D
~* Thursday, December 06, 2007 *~
why oh why? do I feel like i'm last on your priority list............ i'm not a convenience store........
~* Monday, December 03, 2007 *~
~* Sunday, December 02, 2007 *~
I'm heading down Mel soon.......... don't ask me why.. don't ask me how....... don't ask me this or that........All I ask is for your support........
Yes i'm funding my trip myself........ which is a heavy burden for me to bear........ all i'm asking for is ur understanding... not ur sympathy, pity or treats..........i'm still coping well.........
cos sometimes i just wish you all could stand and look at things from my shoes...... don't make a challenging situation even tougher........ pls don't.........
Yes i'm funding my trip myself........ which is a heavy burden for me to bear........ all i'm asking for is ur understanding... not ur sympathy, pity or treats..........i'm still coping well.........
cos sometimes i just wish you all could stand and look at things from my shoes...... don't make a challenging situation even tougher........ pls don't.........
~* Wednesday, November 28, 2007 *~
Sorry for my late post updates of my previous weeks...... BUT......
Why? cos of my Diva-ish Ways.........
and My...
One of them is my Wolfy Baby...
My darlins whom I met for Lunch.... Faith & Jia Yi
The guys........ at our steamy steamy steamboat dinner....
Off to rest our tummies at settler's cafe...
Sharon's Birthday Party Celebration at a Suite at Royal Plaza Hotel
A lovely roomful of Balloons from Kevin... So sweet right?! Yes Kevin!?!?! :P
My meet Ups with Tracie and Yujun.. they're two sweet peeps
Early X'mas with Jia Yi?
Farewell Gatherings with Brightonites Unite!! Thanks Bros & Sistas!
~* Monday, November 26, 2007 *~
It's a wierd wierd kinda feeling....... when everything is just basically pending....... and you're left hanging in mid-air somewhat.......... When each day comes with a ga-zillion things to get done... and you're just not sure how to start....
I've placed the things close to my heart first like my family and friends..... where most of my time is spent..... after doing the necessary like the pr and jobs stuff.....which are of uptmost importance... but that is just on the way... nearly there but not quite I must say........
The certainty of the promise that my life is in God's hands..... the support of love ones....... the desire of heading outward bound......... the carefree life of one without burden... the knowing that patience would eventually pay off.....
Now I just must muster up all my courage to just WAIT........... something I'm not accustomed to.... with the rush of deadlines that i'm used to... the waking up and going to work... the need to feel needed and significant in watever big and small way....
Time is of critical priority yet circumstances are not within my control...... a situation... a time........ when i'm called to live by faith...... and i sincerely pray each and everyday....... with each breathing moment.... I long... I ponder....... I seek for an answer......
By God's Love, Grace and Mercy....... that all this uncertainty will be revealed soon....... I'll be along my way....... and I shall not worry but just be faithful and strong.... as the following gives me comfort:
"[Cast] all your care upon Him, for He cares for you” (1 Peter 5:7), and “God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus” (Phil. 4:19).
I've placed the things close to my heart first like my family and friends..... where most of my time is spent..... after doing the necessary like the pr and jobs stuff.....which are of uptmost importance... but that is just on the way... nearly there but not quite I must say........
The certainty of the promise that my life is in God's hands..... the support of love ones....... the desire of heading outward bound......... the carefree life of one without burden... the knowing that patience would eventually pay off.....
Now I just must muster up all my courage to just WAIT........... something I'm not accustomed to.... with the rush of deadlines that i'm used to... the waking up and going to work... the need to feel needed and significant in watever big and small way....
Time is of critical priority yet circumstances are not within my control...... a situation... a time........ when i'm called to live by faith...... and i sincerely pray each and everyday....... with each breathing moment.... I long... I ponder....... I seek for an answer......
By God's Love, Grace and Mercy....... that all this uncertainty will be revealed soon....... I'll be along my way....... and I shall not worry but just be faithful and strong.... as the following gives me comfort:
"[Cast] all your care upon Him, for He cares for you” (1 Peter 5:7), and “God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus” (Phil. 4:19).
When your mind turns to anxious thoughts about the future, remember that “your heavenly Father knows” (Matt. 6:32) and will give you what you need.
I don’t know about tomorrow,
It may bring me poverty;
But the One who feeds the sparrow
Is the One who stands by me. —Stanphill
© 1950 by Ira Stanphill
Worry is a burden God never intended us to bear.
~* Tuesday, November 20, 2007 *~
READ: James 4:13-17
Prayer:
"God, grant me serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference, living one day at a time, enjoying one moment at a time, accepting hardship as a pathway to peace, taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it, trusting that You will make all things right if I surrender to Your will, so that I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with you forever in the next. Amen - Francis of Assisi"
You do not know what will happen tomorrow. —James 4:14
Life's one certainty is its sheer uncertainty. As Scripture reminds us, we "do not know what will happen tomorrow" (James 4:14). Real estate developer Larry Silverstein can bear witness to the truth of that text. Though he owned impressive property in New York City, he was, according to his own testimony, obsessed by the desire to add the great Twin Towers of the World Trade Center to his holdings. His wish came true. Six weeks before those two imposing skyscrapers were destroyed by terrorists, he had obtained a 99-year lease worth $3.2 billion for that majestic center.
Sadly, the fulfillment of our dreams can sometimes turn into nightmares. This reminds us not only of the uncertainty of life, but also of the need to align our desires with God's will. Experience teaches us that if we allow presumption to run our lives, the fulfillment of our own compulsive dreams may turn to dust and ashes.
There are legitimate desires, to be sure, but the book of James tells us how to approach them. Instead of presuming that our plans and dreams will be fulfilled, we ought to say, "If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that" (4:15).
When we submit our plans to God's will, we can enjoy His peace in the midst of life's uncertainty.
Our life is uncertain, our path is unclear,
Yet we have no cause to falter or fear
If plans that we make our dreams to fulfill
Are born out of love for God and His will. —D. De Haan
Prayer:
"God, grant me serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference, living one day at a time, enjoying one moment at a time, accepting hardship as a pathway to peace, taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it, trusting that You will make all things right if I surrender to Your will, so that I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with you forever in the next. Amen - Francis of Assisi"
~* Sunday, November 18, 2007 *~
It's been another week of just getting over the last lap.........
I may be kind of jumpy.......... kinda nervous...... need more
support and reassurance then my usual tendencies.......
I really appreciate those around lending my their support
in prayers...... in kind words......... and especially
those references like my counselling manager Bernice
Counselling Partner....... OCK......... and my all time fav and
encouraging manager... Victor.........
Don't think they're ever see this but I'm really blessed to
have them in my life..........
Last but not least.... my ever dearest sweetie...... kel for
all the patience..... love...... care and concern......
I really wonder what it'll be like without ya........ BUT I
would never wanna find out.. lol......
All these would also not be possible without the Grace of
God....... because I guess i'm really nothing without Him...
Thanks!!......
I may be kind of jumpy.......... kinda nervous...... need more
support and reassurance then my usual tendencies.......
I really appreciate those around lending my their support
in prayers...... in kind words......... and especially
those references like my counselling manager Bernice
Counselling Partner....... OCK......... and my all time fav and
encouraging manager... Victor.........
Don't think they're ever see this but I'm really blessed to
have them in my life..........
Last but not least.... my ever dearest sweetie...... kel for
all the patience..... love...... care and concern......
I really wonder what it'll be like without ya........ BUT I
would never wanna find out.. lol......
All these would also not be possible without the Grace of
God....... because I guess i'm really nothing without Him...
Thanks!!......
It's been a walk down memory lane when some old friends came by in your life......... My cousin all the way from Guangzhou came over to stay for a night when she stopped by Singapore for a tour around SG and M'sia........
Miss Mani Jiang........ she is such a wonder tour guide when I visited Guangzhou about 2 years back.. too bad it was at such last minute's notice that I didn't have much time to show her around......... but with the little time I had we did cover a few nite spots in SG....... Hope I get the chance to go visit her soon!!
Another lovely surprise was lunch with an old friend like Paul......... well, I needed to say my goodbyes to all my old friends........ I'm really glad we're still friends after so long... it's really rare to have such a heart warming friendship....... nothing spectacular but just to catch up on how each are doing...
It's a pleasant surprise on the twist in his life....... well......... hope you all can go and support him too in his new Venture!! If you want healthy livin! If you need to lose weight.. he's the man...
Check out his website here....... Click here to find out more about Paul...
With my other plans on the way.......... what's there not to love about my life........... I'll keep you all posted yeah!!
Miss Mani Jiang........ she is such a wonder tour guide when I visited Guangzhou about 2 years back.. too bad it was at such last minute's notice that I didn't have much time to show her around......... but with the little time I had we did cover a few nite spots in SG....... Hope I get the chance to go visit her soon!!
Another lovely surprise was lunch with an old friend like Paul......... well, I needed to say my goodbyes to all my old friends........ I'm really glad we're still friends after so long... it's really rare to have such a heart warming friendship....... nothing spectacular but just to catch up on how each are doing...
It's a pleasant surprise on the twist in his life....... well......... hope you all can go and support him too in his new Venture!! If you want healthy livin! If you need to lose weight.. he's the man...
Check out his website here....... Click here to find out more about Paul...
With my other plans on the way.......... what's there not to love about my life........... I'll keep you all posted yeah!!
~* Tuesday, November 13, 2007 *~
Totally inspired by Project Runway....... I decided to embark on Project Maddy........
It's gonna be this new exciting life collection of Me, Myself and I........ in areas such as these:
- My route to spiritual haven
- Career Development
- New improved Love formula
- Image image image
- Interpersonal relations
- Survival of the Fittest
- Literature, Music, Arts, Culture
- New Live Spaces
- City Home
- Up, up and away
It's gonna be a new season of change..........
We're still in planning stages........ so stay tuned........
It's gonna be this new exciting life collection of Me, Myself and I........ in areas such as these:
- My route to spiritual haven
- Career Development
- New improved Love formula
- Image image image
- Interpersonal relations
- Survival of the Fittest
- Literature, Music, Arts, Culture
- New Live Spaces
- City Home
- Up, up and away
It's gonna be a new season of change..........
We're still in planning stages........ so stay tuned........
~* Sunday, November 11, 2007 *~
I've got a new DO... and of cos not without Shunji Moment......... My Jap Hair Stylist Mr Shunji has never failed me........ my live changing hair as I always call it... and hope it works this time as usual as well!
In Spirit for Grey and Joy's wedding... my cousin whom I grew up with together who I fondly call "Wei".............. I'm sooo happy for her!! I've all dressed and set to go!
Princess Maddy.. Ta Da!!
Definitely must take a pic with my love, Ernest! My Little pang pang.... hee hee
The Bride Joy and Groom Grey.. and my cruz.. Ling..
Some baby competition going on... look how adorable they two are together!!
Time to dress up for Dinner...... Theme of the day.. Sweet sweet sweet.......
Xiao Pang is the fav part of my everyday... n dad & me just gotta take a pic
I can't miss one with my niece snow white (kathleen) and price charming (Evans)....
Ling and I shared our Shunji moments and here is one to commemorate...
The bride Joy in red hot sexy number..
We should never miss the chance for more family pics..
And Now......Narcissistic-ness kicks in!
All made up... Sometimes I dunno if I look like myself.. seem to have evolved over the years..
One Kiss for my Sweetie.......
In Spirit for Grey and Joy's wedding... my cousin whom I grew up with together who I fondly call "Wei".............. I'm sooo happy for her!! I've all dressed and set to go!
Princess Maddy.. Ta Da!!
Definitely must take a pic with my love, Ernest! My Little pang pang.... hee hee
The Bride Joy and Groom Grey.. and my cruz.. Ling..
Some baby competition going on... look how adorable they two are together!!
Time to dress up for Dinner...... Theme of the day.. Sweet sweet sweet.......
Xiao Pang is the fav part of my everyday... n dad & me just gotta take a pic
I can't miss one with my niece snow white (kathleen) and price charming (Evans)....
Ling and I shared our Shunji moments and here is one to commemorate...
The bride Joy in red hot sexy number..
We should never miss the chance for more family pics..And Now......Narcissistic-ness kicks in!
....Up close and personal...
All made up... Sometimes I dunno if I look like myself.. seem to have evolved over the years..
One Kiss for my Sweetie.......
And another pose for me myself and my NeWfoUnD LiVin'... Cos I know and I know that God's gonna see me thru' and I'm Keepin the Faith!
